I did it. Somehow.
I got Revenge in, after every possible thing that could go wrong going wrong. My computer lost Internet access. My computer had to be restaged. My borrowed computer lost the entire post and I had to write it all over again.
But it's in. 58,000 words -- I don't even know. And Lucy was 28,000, I think, so together I basically wrote a YA novel. NOTE TO THE FUTURE: NEVER DO THIS AGAIN. EVER.
Even though I'm almost sure that the later chapters are a bit weak - because, you know, time and stupid damn computer - it's done. It's done, it's done. I am so glad. And I'm kind of satisfied with myself that even though this is not the entire storyline, that I did manage to do everything I wanted to. I took that vague plot and strung out this weird (okay, kind of plotless) story and got everything I wanted in it. Is it better than Return of the Jedi? lol no. But has a bunch of individual things that are more satisfying for me personally. I know I shortchanged the Jabba section especially, but that's... kind of my way of reversing it? I was always irritated that it goes ON AND ON AND ON, so my version is like, idk, three paragraphs and then the barge scene and oh look he's dead. Which isn't necessarily good, but personally satisfying.
In fact, of all the stories I've written, this may be the most purely self-indulgent. This story is basically what I wanted it to be, and I just ignored everything I know about how there should be a Plot where Things Happen that are Not Flashbacks and Possibly Also Not Monk Training. Also, the PT AU embedded within it is totally my favourite part. And possibly I should have just written that.And maybe I will someday. And yeah, it doesn't wrap up the story as such -- Vader's arc, in particular, is just starting, and Shmi's is left dangling, but it wraps up enough that I'm happy with it. Unlike Lucy -- I mean, I'm happy with Lucy (probably happier than I am with Revenge even, because of that whole Plot thing), but it's practically got TO BE CONTINUED plastered at the bottom of it. This could...probably be its own thing, even though obviously there is more story.
Also, seriously guys -- all of you who encouraged me through these monstrosities. Thank you. Sometimes seeing someone go "ooh that sounds amazing!" or "no, E, I'm really looking forward to it..." is what got me from staring at a blank "Ch 14" or whatever and filling it with, you know, words. It's been fun to talk about and to hint about and to know people actually cared about. So thanks!
Second also, my artist was amazing. I was perpetually behind, aside of all my computer problems, I wrote the chapters out of order so I could only send them to her very slowly, the fanmix ended up being wonderfully appropriate and sparkly and everything. So just so you know.
Now I don't want to write any serious fiction for like A YEAR by which I probably mean a week and a half. I'm like 'whoa, do I even want to do it next year? lol whatevs.' But now that I've shown I can write over eighty thousand words (lol), I think I could actually do it properly for once. But never two at once. NEVER.
But it's in. 58,000 words -- I don't even know. And Lucy was 28,000, I think, so together I basically wrote a YA novel. NOTE TO THE FUTURE: NEVER DO THIS AGAIN. EVER.
Even though I'm almost sure that the later chapters are a bit weak - because, you know, time and stupid damn computer - it's done. It's done, it's done. I am so glad. And I'm kind of satisfied with myself that even though this is not the entire storyline, that I did manage to do everything I wanted to. I took that vague plot and strung out this weird (okay, kind of plotless) story and got everything I wanted in it. Is it better than Return of the Jedi? lol no. But has a bunch of individual things that are more satisfying for me personally. I know I shortchanged the Jabba section especially, but that's... kind of my way of reversing it? I was always irritated that it goes ON AND ON AND ON, so my version is like, idk, three paragraphs and then the barge scene and oh look he's dead. Which isn't necessarily good, but personally satisfying.
In fact, of all the stories I've written, this may be the most purely self-indulgent. This story is basically what I wanted it to be, and I just ignored everything I know about how there should be a Plot where Things Happen that are Not Flashbacks and Possibly Also Not Monk Training. Also, the PT AU embedded within it is totally my favourite part. And possibly I should have just written that.
Also, seriously guys -- all of you who encouraged me through these monstrosities. Thank you. Sometimes seeing someone go "ooh that sounds amazing!" or "no, E, I'm really looking forward to it..." is what got me from staring at a blank "Ch 14" or whatever and filling it with, you know, words. It's been fun to talk about and to hint about and to know people actually cared about. So thanks!
Second also, my artist was amazing. I was perpetually behind, aside of all my computer problems, I wrote the chapters out of order so I could only send them to her very slowly, the fanmix ended up being wonderfully appropriate and sparkly and everything. So just so you know.
Now I don't want to write any serious fiction for like A YEAR by which I probably mean a week and a half. I'm like 'whoa, do I even want to do it next year? lol whatevs.' But now that I've shown I can write over eighty thousand words (lol), I think I could actually do it properly for once. But never two at once. NEVER.
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I could not love this fic more if I tried. Really, I couldn't.
I love your Shmi--- dear Force, you made me love Shmi, this is amazing! You made her awesome and epic and winful! And your Leia! Who shoots Force lightning!!!! That could not be more awesome if it tried! And the fact that Luke is totally chill about her possibly turning to the Dark Side! Actually, everything ever about your Luke! And your Vader who is and isn't Anakin and is and is awesome! And Anakin who is... "Papa's going to make everything right for you" or words to that effect and that's why he turned and oh how perfect! (And he has an apparent aversion to furniture, why do I love that so much? But I do!) And Anissa is... I want more of her!!!! Yes, please! And I can't wait to meet Luke's twin sister! And you made me like Yoda, after the PT! I have no words for what an accomplishment that is! "Important nap", indeed! (And you also made me like Luke and Leia not being twins! Because... okay, I'm an
And I love Leia's line about how we have enough enemies without making a friend into one, and Vader's thought about not mentioning what he'd been doing with a lightsaber at thirty and Luke's thought about how his father is Obi-wan's star pupil and how kriffed-up the Jedi were (mercenaries selling their swords and so forth) and I cannot squee enough about this fic, I really can't!
Also, I know you were worried about your dialogue being too stilted, but really, no, not at all! The only people who were ever highly formal were people who would be and you made them pitch-perfect and the ones who wouldn't be were pitch-perfect as well! And this is gorgeously character-driven and there is plenty of Stuff Happening, stories don't always need a Conventional Plot, and this one definitely didn't, because it had deeply engaging people growing and changing in their relationships with each other and themselves and the world/the Force and that is better than plot for making a story hold my attention at least. Plot can sometimes be detrimental to letting characters grow and it is good that this isn't slaving the characters to a Conventional Plot. (And there is plenty of plottiness, too, because we have the Sun Crusher and the overthrow of the Emperor and New Alderaan and so forth, but we also spend enough time on these people to care if they achieve their plotty goals, which matters!)
And Leia. With Force lightning. I know I mentioned that but it is so amazing and wonderful that I have to bring it up again. (I have heretical opinions about the Dark and Light sides of the Force. Which fact I admit freely.)
Anyway, in summary, this is kriffing amazing and I love it epically and yeah.
Re: I could not love this fic more if I tried. Really, I couldn't.
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Re: I could not love this fic more if I tried. Really, I couldn't.
epic teal deer are epic!
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