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Good lord, I wish Kingdom Hearts fandom would get off my Tumblr post. Every time I check in, I have 99+ notes and all or nearly all are just jokes I don't understand about KH. Normally, "not understanding jokes" is part of my experience of life, but not because of lack of knowledge, just—not really getting what makes them most of them funny (this contributed to my autism diagnosis!). And it's not a fun experience, so getting them incessantly in my activity bar is ... well, not fun. :\

tbh I'm torn between appreciating the friends I've made through Tumblr (hi, those of you on DW!) and wishing I'd just stuck to the writing account there and kept my fandom life over here.

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On the brighter side, I queued ... like, 25 posts for the writing Tumblr blog, which feels nice! Several are links to Éowyn art, but I had actually gathered the links to all of their sources five years ago, so I can easily credit them properly.

I also have a Wordpress blog that is more ... professional, I guess? I mostly put reviews, longer-form thoughts, and pictures of my cats there, so my Tumblr is much more active. But I do like how the Wordpress blog looks, at least, and it's more neatly organized than my Anghraine accounts, which gives me joy. Additionally, I re-read an old story that I submitted a couple of times and was unsurprised to have rejected, and I thought it had promise if I cleaned it up, so—I cleaned it up. 

I was talking on Tumblr about my concern that it deals with empire-building and it's not perfectly clear that the charismatic "hero" is the antagonist until relatively late in the story (even given that it's barely 13 pgs). I don't want to be didactic, but I also don't want to seem rah rah imperialism to the point that people just stop reading before the reveal. Also, the whole thing is told from an outside POV character who loves the hero's wife, and there are some places I'd like to submit that specifically don't want outside POVs (RIP me, I guess). I couldn't change the POV, but ... idk, thinking of at least trying again with some other markets.

I believe in my little postlude-to-the-fairy-tale-whoops-imperialism story at its core, and I like the revision, but I also have a lot of uncertainty about how well I got across what I was trying to do, etc etc. That said, it's still enjoyable and exciting to look at markets, see what's out there, etc.