Icons! :D

Jun. 18th, 2025 09:56 am
anghraine: kirk disguised as mirror kirk in a glittery gold vest with his fingers loosely touching his mouth; text: fabulous (kirk [queer])
Despite stumbling into passionately shipping the original Star Trek ship of ultimate destiny that spawned fandom as we know it, I've found my interests and preferences a bit at odds with general ST fandom, which naturally has meant that I had to make my own silly TOS icons reflecting what I'm personally into. I promised[personal profile] elperian that I'd get around to posting them here—they're up for grabs for anyone who wants them, and I'm sick and miserable for asthma reasons, so it's something that doesn't take a lot of brain power.

1. You know the infamous scene from S3 where the terribly written alien spawns a terribly written Kirk meltdown only for it to become one of the most incredible and certainly gayest scenes in all of TOS ft. Kirk and Spock's shadows leaning in and eventually overlapping? I definitely needed that one:



2. Perhaps the most purely surprising and purely delightful revelation from the TOS watch was that Uhura doesn't do much more with Spock than hit on him a few times in some early episodes, but she and Kirk have a really charming platonic friendship where they're only ever on a last name/rank basis, yet are genuinely close and are persistently shown to care very deeply about each other. And they're also absolute joys when their subtle background rapport as mutually smooth-talking, stylish, high-strung but controlled professionals gets to flourish into what I can only describe as bisexual guile diva chaos gremlin energy. There are multiple occasions when one of them is finally starting to crumble under the pressure and the other is an absolute rock until the crisis passes (which one takes which role actually varies), but I have a real soft spot for Kirk reminding Uhura of how important and valuable she is in "Mirror, Mirror," so that's the scene I chose for my first Kirk-Uhura brotp icon:



3. The great thing about "Amok Time" is—well, there are many great things, but you know how you sometimes watch something, and you just end up kind of hating everyone and siding with a meteor destroying all concerned? "Amok Time" is the opposite of that. It's one of few episodes of anything where I'm pretty much Team Everyone, and this very much includes one of my absolute favorite Vulcans of all time and one of my favorite women in TOS, my girl T'Pring:



Yes, she did all that, and good for her, too. Spock himself talks about the prospect of having sex with her with about as much enthusiasm as a death sentence and T'Pring doesn't want to be his property/consort, so win/win. Maybe Vulcan should have better divorce laws if they don't want fantastically stylish women scheming for personal autonomy!!

4. There was no way in hell I wasn't going to have an icon for my beloved episode of episodes, "The Conscience of the King" (a fantastically acted and structured episode in general, obviously a great Kirk episode specifically, with an intense and intriguing villain in Kodos/Karidian, but also in true TOS fashion about the then-highly topical subject matter of what to do with elderly Nazis escaped eugenicist war criminals, an emphasis on Spock immediately recognizing the strangeness of Kirk's behavior and quickly grasping the weight of genocide for the survivors where McCoy desperately wants to filter Kirk's actions through familiar, relatable, pedestrian motives right up to the end, all interlaced with early modern revenge tragedy aka my academic specialization and other great love—truly, no episode could be more perfect for me specifically). So I went with an icon for one of my absolute favorite scenes from the whole damn thing, the magnificent confrontation between Kirk and Kodos:



"You're an actor now. What were you twenty years ago?"
"Younger, captain. Much younger."

"So was I. But I remember."


5. I really wanted a gay Spock icon that was not necessarily a Kirk/Spock icon (he is mostly Kirksexual, sure, but he's also so aggressively Not Into Women on so many occasions that I felt it deserved its own separate icon). And so many of those scenes don't really get across the level of bitchy indifference without the movement of his head tilt or shrug or whatnot... but I found one that I felt truly encapsulated the particular gay energy of Spock:



6. While I was at it, I couldn't resist the other supremely bitchy gay Spock scene (this is when Kirk invites him to join a party of dudes going to a hot lady cafe and Spock very slowly tilts his head and projects intensely passive-aggressive confusion at the idea that he could possibly find this appealing):



7. There's a post that periodically goes around about Shatner's wildly erratic positions on Kirk's sexuality over the last 50-odd years that's like... dude, you're the one who kept looking at Nimoy like you wanted to eat him, you're the one who played Kirk as the queerest dude in space, you did this, Bill, and—yeah, it's not wrong. One of the other big surprises from watching all of TOS was realizing that the intense queer vibes of K/S has every bit as much to do with Shatner's performance as Nimoy's, along with the framing and writing and so on. No other Kirk actor (and few ST actors period) has even remotely approached the off-the-charts queer energy of the original, and so I made a silly icon about it:



8. I wanted a K/S icon that captured how much of their dynamic is like—

Kirk: I'll admit that part of me seeks the blood of my enemies and every day I choose not to murder
Spock: um, I ... have questions
Kirk: well it's just - LOOK A FLOWER!!!!!!
Spock: Jim please stop sniffing flowers they keep trying to kill you



Truly, no one's doing it like them.

9. One of my other favorite Kirk-Uhura brotp moments is when he casually promotes her to the local racist's position controlling the Enterprise's weapons and navigation in the middle of the Romulan crisis in "Balance of Terror." Kirk and Uhura are visually framed together a lot in that episode and lit very similarly, so I wanted to pair Uhura confidently stepping up in that episode with his affirmation of her importance in "Mirror, Mirror":



10. I had been talking with [personal profile] elperian about the hunt for Kirk icons, and we both hadn't found any that used the much-quoted description of him from the pilot as "a stack of books with legs" and his notoriety at the Academy as the demanding teacher of a course (implied to be a philosophy class) in which cadets would either "think or sink." Despite his more easy-going manner in the present, his conviction that noping out of critical thinking and creativity is not an option, ethically, remains absolutely non-negotiable and central to his worldview in TOS, so I wanted to come up with a "think or sink" icon. However, when I was collecting some screenshots from "Court Martial" for unrelated meta, one of them was so perfect for "stack of books with legs" that I couldn't resist going with that one instead!


anghraine: a bg3 half-elf paladin with hair loose around her shoulders and a background of daytime sky (alexandra (sky))
I got BG3 updated on my main computer and checked the patch notes. Despite my Alfira-shaped trauma from my very abortive Dark Urge attempt, I laughed at this:

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Huh

Aug. 13th, 2024 07:32 am
anghraine: vader extending his lightsaber; text: and now for the airing of grievances! (Default)
I don't even recall who posted this, but apparently at Worldcon, Seanan McGuire presented this simple flowchart to explain what is and is not fanfic:



I have no grievance with McGuire in general, but this is both elegant and quite wrong, IMO. Sorry, my Austen fanfic is very much fanfic (and there's no need to give the P&P "variations" industry any more delusions of grandeur than it already has, lol—those are very much fanfic, too). Some of my fics could also be considered re-imaginings or retellings—First Impressions is the obvious example as a deliberate retelling of P&P with genderswapped leads, rather than a true what-if AU—but they are absolutely fanfic. They're fiction written as a form of fan expression.

Sometimes there is a real sense of difference between fiction of this kind, especially when written in a fandom context that is clearly informed by or in dialogue with other fanworks, wider trends in the fandom or in online fandom in general, etc vs some literary re-imaginings that interrogate the source material but are not really fannish (not even in a fan hatred way). So it's not that I think all fiction of this kind should be defined as fanfic. I think that has to do with the conditions of creation rather than the novelty of the cast, setting, and/or plot. But the defining artistic criteria of fanfic as a form or genre are not determined by externally imposed legal codes or the opinion of the source material's author.

There have been many attempts to develop an authoritative definition for fanfic that ultimately comes down to "can you legally make money off it?" But that is not what fanfic is, and I'm deeply skeptical of conceptualizing genre, any genre, based on whether or when it can be sold. A lot of licensed IP writers seem very invested in distinguishing their work from fanfic—sometimes claiming it's not about superiority (sure, Jan), but it's just very important to them that they not be perceived as fanfic writers. But I'd argue that what makes licensed work fanfic or not isn't actually the license, or it being a professional job for money, but the approach of the work in question. Some IP writers are very much fans and clearly approached the licensed work as a chance to write fanfic about some part of canon they're super into with authorization from a parent company or something (various Star Trek writers seem to be very much of this type, say). Others don't really seem to be approaching their work as a form of fan expression, which is not morally wrong in any way, but definitely different. Going back to P&P, there are some takes that I wouldn't really consider fanfic (unlike the variation industry), just because the authors don't seem to be writing as fans but for some other goal. So you sometimes get P&P sequels that are really different from the fanfic—more literary in some ways, but often less engaged with Pride and Prejudice or its adaptations than the fanfic tends to be and prone to little canon errors that fans don't usually make. It's a little hard to describe but you can usually tell.

In any case: some licensed IP work is fanfic and acknowledged as such by the authors, while some isn't; some fanfic is based on source material that is long out of copyright (and some other things based on the same or similar sources isn't fanfic), and the time since publication does not merit a specific respectable distinction from, idk, normie fanfic by Marvel slash superfans or whoever is the fannish target du jour.
anghraine: a picture of grey-white towers starting to glow yellow in the rising sun (minas anor)
Normally I just vaguely describe text posts I reblogged on a certain date, but this one really cannot be paraphrased:



[Text: Tumblr user problempippin posted on 15 Jan 2019 that "pippin is buff and the reason why boromir and other men of gondor describe him as childlike is bc in gondor all children are fucking shredded"]

I added:

#finally quality gondor content

[ETA 5/24/2024: this was mostly but not entirely tongue-in-cheek on my part! Tolkien is pretty clear that even Third Age Dúnedain are bigger and stronger than other people, including Elves, and their standards of physical strength are pretty distinct. I could believe that kids in Minas Tirith are shredded :P]
anghraine: a cropped image of the official art for the mesmer class in the original guild wars game (mesmer (guild wars))


In honor of finally!!! getting the Legendary Defender of Ascalon title after fiFTEEN YEARS, a thing for my favorite location in any video game ever: pre-Searing Ascalon from Guild Wars: Prophecies.

Never forgive, never forget.
anghraine: a cropped image of the official art for the mesmer class in the original guild wars game (mesmer (guild wars))
Anyway, I’ve got multiple things to put off, so I loaded the old Guild Wars (Propheciesgame from 2005 and … :’)



Tagged: #tumblr is stretching the screenshot so it looks weird #but i love the costumes and colors and everything #that you can get in the game #and she's doing legendary defender of ascalon so she has exactly two costume options #but i love them both!
anghraine: leia in early esb smiling (leia [smiling])
More political schadenfreude:


[A screenshot from a news headline reading "Sen. Minority Leader Mitch McConnell makes remarks"]

hahahaha
anghraine: a female half-elf with unruly hair tilting her head back with her brows furrowed (larissa (furrowed))
I promise! In general!

But damn, I was actually thinking this one had some good points riiiiight until the last two lines.



tbh I remain convinced that most fanfic discourse relies on strong generalizations about fanfic without any clear definitions of what fanfic is and, perhaps more importantly, what it is not. I know it's pretentious, but I think that's part of the reason these takes fail to accurately differentiate the ways in which no art stands alone from what fanfic does, and especially fail to distinguish community norms driven by specific social contexts from aspects inherent to the form.

I mean, this take and all the other, usually worse, takes like it are essentially framed in terms of assertions about qualities intrinsic to the forms of fanfic vs original fic, without any attention to the effects of community and culture. They often get annoyed by "what about Shakespeare/Ovid/adaptation?" etc, but an argument based on form does invite those comparisons. I've never seen any of them provide an effective rebuttal based in the same formal reasoning. The terms have to shift to questions of quality or culture or simply "That's different" with no reasoning at all.
anghraine: luke and leia on the death star in anh, grinning; text: star wars: serious business (srs bznz (sw))
Namely, the main upside is that I've forbidden myself from reblogging these kinds of nakedly manipulative and desperate attempts to turn anti-kink fandom morality policing into progressive praxis:



I've seen some people pushing back against the idea that the anti-kink fandom morality police's vapors over anything but the most vanilla sexuality could possibly be puritanical, and it's always this kind of tortured, manipulative argument that seems incredibly transparent but somehow ends up getting uncritically reblogged. This particular one is so wrong from every angle that I wouldn't even know where to start. But since I'm not letting myself get into those kinds of arguments on Tumblr, I don't have to start. #blessed
anghraine: luke and leia against a yellow background, swirly circles between them; text: bonds of spirit (luke and leia [bonds of spirit])
[personal profile] elperian tagged me on Tumblr! For this meme, you show your top five songs on your current On Repeat Spotify list, if you use Spotify. I didn't bother snipping numbers 6&7, so they're included for no particular reason, but:



[A screenshot of a Spotify On Repeat list, with the top seven songs visible:

1 - Nevertheless, She Persisted | Audiomachine
2 - Pompeii MMXXIII | Bastille & Hans Zimmer
3 - Who Wants To Live Forever | Queen
4 - Luke and Leia | John Williams
5 - Dauntless | Audiomachine
6 - Mass Effect Theme | Jack Wall & Sam Hulick
7 - Radio Ga Ga | Queen]

No surprises here, lol.

Tagging anyone who sees this, uses Spotify, and wants to do it!

anghraine: picture of luke; text: my fandom has been whining longer than your fandom has existed (luke [whining])


[Stats from my third PhD exam on Jan 2nd, 2021, reading Page 6 of 22; 6613 words]

when will I be freeeee

Tagged: #i'm supposed to have endnotes but also they don't count #T_T
anghraine: an enraged korra propels herself in the avatar state (korra (avatar state))
I reblogged this post of mine about Youtube's algorithm being bad and added:

like, really bad



????

????????????????????????????????

Tagged: #WHY #literally all i watch are atla/lok clips and writing videos #and it's like ... oh would you like to see ben shapiro's ranking of the sw movies?? #me: NO. NO I WOULD NOT

anghraine: a man with long black hair and a ring on his hand (faramir [hair])
I was looking for a post and instead ran over a really old one where I pointed out that when Éowyn is 75, Faramir will be the same age that Aragorn is in LOTR, and live 33 more years.

Thanks, past self.



Tagged: #don't think it's likely that she has éomer's lifespan either #:\ #also just thinking about it ... everyone thought denethor was prematurely aged bc his people and family don't age like that #faramir will probably neither look nor feel old until he's at least 100 #idk i'm kind of thinking back to andreth and aegnor and like - obvs he's not literally immortal #(he == faramir) #but there's that concern with /aging/ and not just with literal death #in the athrabeth that the fourth age couples shrug off #when éowyn asks if faramir would have his people ask if he couldn't have chosen a númenórean i do kind of wonder if any of this is in her head #in any case his answer is 'fuck it i don't care' #which is such a nice contrast with aegnor lol #honestly ... i loved him from ttt but also #this is part of it too! #he's got to know what's going to happen #but some things matter more than borrowing grief!!! #also #him being so númenórean and yet turning his back on the blood purity shit without a moment's reservation is just ... #<3 #okay this ended up at a more optimistic note than it started on
anghraine: vader extending his lightsaber; text: and now for the airing of grievances! (Default)

I thought I’d become pretty zen about LOTR on Prime, but a Youtuber I was just watching was like … hey, what if it’s a prequel to the movies? They could share continuity and everything!

me:


Tagged:

#the one(1) thing that makes me pretty chill about it is the possibility of an interpretation of middle-earth that's DIFFERENT #even if it's bad it will be differently bad! #but what if ... not? #like yeah i expect there to be considerable influence bc the films exert /such/ a vast influence on the popular imagination #but aghhhhhhhhh #i mean ... i'm sure it would be complicated legally to do that but EVEN SO it will haunt my nightmares #lord of the rings movies #(i am not saying they are all bad fwiw #or even mostly bad #but they are flawed and theirs is not the sole permissible vision for middle-earth)

[ETA 3/14/2024: ngl it has since become very clear to me that much of "Tolkien" fandom actually disagrees that other cinematic visions of Middle-earth are a good thing, or even a tolerable thing. ROP does have a different vision from the Jackson films, but it's pretty moderately different tbh, and even that is a cause for sackcloth and ashes. Meanwhile, social media keeps bombarding me with defensive arguments against Christopher Tolkien's criticisms of the Jackson films, including "Christopher Tolkien did a lot of good but he didn't get his father the way Peter Jackson did and should have been more grateful to Jackson." I'm not uncritical of every editorial choice Christopher Tolkien ever made—nor was Christopher himself—but the stans who cannot hear a word against the films, including from Tolkien's now-dead son and confidant, while throwing screaming tantrums about ROP at every opportunity? Come on.]
anghraine: a picture of a wooden chair with a regal white rod propped on the seat (stewards)



For my anon who asked if I had any Fourth Age headcanon family trees … indeed I do. :D

This is simplified; people are placed by convenience rather than age, and more of the second generation (Elfwinë et al.) have children than appear here, but I haven’t thought too much that far in. Also:

- Ithíriel, Elros’s wife here, comes from this headcanon; the short version is that she was a Hadorian loremaster who made for an obscure Queen of Númenor but a highly accomplished scholar and patroness of scholarship.

- In POME, Tolkien says that the Stewards were not direct descendants of the line of Elendil but were ultimately “of royal origin,” which I take to mean that they come from some junior Elrosian offshoot along the way. A lot of Dúnedain probably do at this point (many times over, at that).

- In UT, Tolkien says that the ancestors of the Princes of Dol Amroth were kin of Elendil. This doesn’t have to be on the Elrosian side, but my headcanon is that it is and they were related through Inzilbêth.

- I imagine Princess Telperiën as silver-haired and named for Celebrían (not Tar-Telperiën, much as I love her)

- Glóredhel is the only one of Faramir and Éowyn’s children with golden hair, and was named for it and (as I imagine is pretty common) for the Edainic figure from the First Age, not Elves.

- Elfhild*/Elvaeth marries a Dúnadan of the North and goes to Arnor; Athelflaed/Aravain becomes a knight in Gondor (her path somewhat smoothed by her aunt Éowyn’s heroics) and a close friend and protector of Eldarion.

- Morwen’s son Barahir, sister-son of Glóredhel and Eldarion, is the Barahir who wrote The Tale of Aragorn and Arwen.

[ETA 3/12/2024: *I later changed my name about Elfhild/Elvaeth's name. I knew it sounded familiar and couldn't recall why at the time, but this is the name of Théoden's wife and I didn't want to also use it for Éomer and Lothíriel's daughter, but I did want to retain the alternate name Elvaeth after she ends up in Arnor. I went for the sneaky route and renamed her Steorrahild, because the el- of Elvaeth could represent the OE component Elf but also OE Steorra, "star."]

anghraine: a painting of a couple walking on the lawn of haddon hall in derbyshire (pemberley (haddon))
[personal profile] heckofabecca responded to this post:

<3 <3 <3

hard for me to follow how exactly everyone’s related without the visual aid of a family tree, but does that stop me loving this? ABSOLUTELY NOT, KEEP IT COMING


I replied:

Thank you! Here are charts and a guide:






The characters in red are the ones who are still alive c. 1796: Lady Georgiana Carteret née Howard (mother of Darcy’s father); Georgiana Harcourt née Carteret (half-sister of Darcy’s father); Philadelphia, Lady Auckland née Carteret (half-sister of Darcy’s father); Cassandra, Lavinia, and Alexander Darcy (first cousins of Darcy’s father); George, Lord Carrington (Darcy’s second cousin), and Sarah, Lady Carrington, née Sarah Pratt; Beatrice Howard (Darcy’s second cousin); James, Lord Auckland; Rev. Thomas Stanley; Clarissa Stanley (Darcy’s half-cousins); Darcy and Georgiana.

[ETA 3/12/2024: there is a small mistake here; Lord Carrington's father, the duke, is still alive in 1796 and should also be outlined in red (otherwise Carrington would be the duke). In my headcanon, Carrington has become the canonical duke involved in the Ecclesford theatricals by the time of Mansfield Park. But it would not have happened yet during P&P.]
anghraine: vader extending his lightsaber; text: and now for the airing of grievances! (Default)
I am very deeply tired of the posts about how no one is neurotypical actually, everyone is disabled if you think about it, mental disabilities are just poorly conceived associations of traits and you shouldn't limit yourself with a label, blah blah blah.

I get that some of this is spurred on by inaccurate generalizations and assumptions about neurotypical people from neurodivergent people who may not fully understand the variations and nuances of NT experience, or who are simply wrong about certain things, or whose venting is imprecise, etc. But some of this so patently arises out of a visceral resentment at not being centered in every form of disability discourse and advocacy, and refusal to countenance the idea that neurodivergent people a) exist as such and b) are marginalized in a way that many NT people are not.

Some of these posts/commentary are coming from other neurodivergent people with whom I simply disagree. But most that I have seen are pretty clearly written from the POV of someone who knows they would ordinarily be considered neurotypical and resents it in a birdsrightsactivist kind of way:



[A screenshot of a Tweet from the user ProBirdsRights, aka birdsrightsactivist, reading "I am feel uncomfortable when we are not about me?"]

Autism on any scale but the most severe (and that only sometimes) does not seem real to most of the people writing these posts, additionally. That's part of the thing that makes this so frustrating for me, personally. This line of discourse is overwhelmingly dominated by allistic people who all but say everyone is autistic in their own way, while revealing a mind-boggling lack of comprehension or basic empathy about what it is actually like to go through the world as an autistic person. They very evidently regard autistic self-advocates as, at most, slightly eccentric but basically normal, self-indulgent people whom they just find kind of grating for some mysterious reason that they do not interrogate at all.

It's like ... even when I'm ranting (like now!), I try to put things in a careful way, in large part because I am very easy to misunderstand IRL and I don't like it. But so many of these posts that I see being reblogged (by well-intentioned people who just ... don't get it) make me want to start screaming. Often the frustration takes me hours or days to articulate. Sometimes I'm just trying to think of some phrasing other than "shut the fuck up, you don't know what you're talking about." I never say that directly to any individual. But there is so much utterly unearned and misplaced overconfidence in so many of these posts that it's difficult not to feel it.
anghraine: a man with long black hair and a ring on his hand (faramir [hair])
According to Wikipedia (I know, I know), all grey-eyed people actually have little splotches of different color in their eyes, even if you can’t really tell. I do, for instance!



Naturally, this makes me think of Tolkien and the 90% of his cast with grey eyes … do they have the splotches?

Is it special because they have improbably clear grey eyes or do they look more like most grey-eyed people IRL?

Is it more silver-grey or iron-grey?

Is there some range (blue-grey, green-grey, light grey, dark grey?), and that’s why it’s so noticeable when someone has the Super Special-type grey eyes?

I just have a lot of questions!!

Tagged: #this is a very deep post #but honestly i thought grey eyes were THE most boring thing to have until tolkien #and then having dark hair and grey eyes promptly became :D :D :D #i tragically don't have black/near-black hair like my parents but still #i wonder about éowyn's sea-grey eyes for instance #do we take that as blue-grey? stormy grey??? is it classic númenórean grey from morwen or typically rohirren grey?? #i choose to believe that some of the vast number of them have grey eyes like me of course

Aww!

Mar. 11th, 2024 08:01 am
anghraine: a man with long black hair and a ring on his hand (faramir [hair])
I got a reblog on my "Faramir/Éowyn consumes Faramir's arc far more than Éowyn's" post that definitely brightened my day:

[A reblog from Tumblr user ravencromwell reading:

#for all! that I stand by my earlier tag comments re Eowyn and Faramir and how Faramir builds a life continuing his brother's work even if #it's not in the White City. this!!!!!!!! is also so very true!!!!!!!! and beautifully fucking written to boot: #op is one of those people with whom my fandoms don't overlap a lot but every! time I see Anghraine on my dash I'm just vibrating #cause this is gonna be thought-provoking and beautiful #LOTR #Eowyn #Faramir]

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