Tumblr crosspost (28 February 2021)
May. 20th, 2024 08:31 amI was also just thinking about Adora talking about how Shadow Weaver taught her to read and tie her boots and told her ghost stories … like, that honestly just makes her awfulness (re: both, though of course especially Catra) even worse. The whole dynamic actually reminds me a lot of Ozai-Zuko-Azula, with Zuko and Azula’s roles swapped, but she’s a lot more interesting than Ozai tbh.
Tagged: #shadow weaver #i usually tag villains by their names and not pseudonyms but uhhhh. let's just go shadow weaver
Tumblr crosspost (22 February 2021)
May. 14th, 2024 10:58 pmI reblogged this gifset of Korra's and Kuvira's victory dances, and added:
#i just needed this on my dash again!!!
#i just needed this on my dash again!!!
Tumblr crosspost (15 February 2021)
May. 13th, 2024 05:26 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
:D
cosmiclattes said (on Feb 16th):
Yeah, I joined the LOK fandom… this year actually lol. ATLA was my favorite show when I was a kid and I wasn’t really willing to give LOK a chance and now that I am I’m trying to catch up on so much meta and stories. But Tarrlok is such an intense and fascinating character omg
I replied (on Feb 19th):
Oh, cool—welcome!! LOK has its flaws, but I am super fond of its high moments, and I think the sort of character arc highlights reel that Tarrlok gets from early in the show to his end is definitely one of them.
I also think “intense” is a really good word for him. Even at his most slippery and ambitious, there’s something intense and concentrated about him—he doesn’t do anything halfway, whether it’s good or terrible (Tarrlok: maybe my lie won’t be convincing enough … better electrocute myself to make sure!). And the turn in his character and his account of himself and Noatak makes so much look different in retrospect; it’s really interesting and rewarding IMO.
Tagged: #faaaave
dynadratina responded to my reply (on Feb 20th):
#i agree! #tarrlok is awesome
theantagonistfiles replied to the original ask (on Feb 28th):
*goes immediately to fanfiction.net to find the fic* HOLY CRAP IT'S AMAZINGLY WRITTEN THANK YOU DEAR AUTHOR
Tumblr crosspost (15 February 2021)
May. 13th, 2024 05:14 pmcosmiclattes said:
! I just stumbled across your blog and realized it was you who wrote one of my favorite fics/characterizations (Ten Facts About Tarrlok) and I think I left a comment on something of yours (I went through a couple I forgot 😅) so sorry for repeating myself here but you have a really good grasp on his character !
I replied:
Hey, thank you very much! I was even thinking of posting about it—while all compliments are, of course, dear to me and very much appreciated, I am especially touched when people still care about my Tarrlok stuff.
I mean, he was an antagonistic supporting character in the kind of odd first season of a Y7 show from years ago which was persistently screwed over by the network, and he went out by committing a fratricidal murder-suicide—not someone I really expected people to still have my feelings about. So I do particularly appreciate hearing it!
[ETA 5/13/2024: fun fact! Some new bloodbender brothers fan just found my blog over the last couple of days and has been leaving notes on every single post. I'm delighted, haha.]
! I just stumbled across your blog and realized it was you who wrote one of my favorite fics/characterizations (Ten Facts About Tarrlok) and I think I left a comment on something of yours (I went through a couple I forgot 😅) so sorry for repeating myself here but you have a really good grasp on his character !
I replied:
Hey, thank you very much! I was even thinking of posting about it—while all compliments are, of course, dear to me and very much appreciated, I am especially touched when people still care about my Tarrlok stuff.
I mean, he was an antagonistic supporting character in the kind of odd first season of a Y7 show from years ago which was persistently screwed over by the network, and he went out by committing a fratricidal murder-suicide—not someone I really expected people to still have my feelings about. So I do particularly appreciate hearing it!
[ETA 5/13/2024: fun fact! Some new bloodbender brothers fan just found my blog over the last couple of days and has been leaving notes on every single post. I'm delighted, haha.]
Tumblr crosspost (8 February 2021)
May. 9th, 2024 10:21 pmThe Avatar account just posted the final confrontation between Zuko and Ozai, and it’s still so good. One of my absolute favorite moments in the whole show.
Tagged: #i am a very quiet zuko stan lol #...quiet about him anyway
[ETA 5/9/2024: lol, I went to select an icon and realized I don't even have one for him, and in fact all my Avatar icons seem to be for LOK. Backs up my point about being a quiet Zuko stan, I guess!]
Tagged: #i am a very quiet zuko stan lol #...quiet about him anyway
[ETA 5/9/2024: lol, I went to select an icon and realized I don't even have one for him, and in fact all my Avatar icons seem to be for LOK. Backs up my point about being a quiet Zuko stan, I guess!]
Genderbending AO3 stats
May. 8th, 2024 01:59 pmI'm taking a brief break from my dissertation to ... uh, amuse myself by figuring out my readers' ranking of my genderbending fics on AO3.
Rules I'm applying: 1) I'm only including fic verses that are collectively at least 2000 words long because, well, I do have to go back to the diss, 2) verses comprised of multiple fics are ranked according to either the popularity of the series as a whole or the most popular individual fic (depending on which is higher; not combining them because there's a lot of overlap), 3) I'm considering both bookmarks and kudos in my judgment—we'll see if it makes a difference, and 4) I'm ignoring everything with less than 30 kudos and 5 bookmarks.
1. First Impressions | 215 bookmarks | 876 kudos | genderbent characters: Elizabeth Bennet (-> Henry Bennet) and Fitzwilliam Darcy (-> Catherine Darcy)
This is a genderswapped retelling of Pride and Prejudice set in its original period (not really a true "what if"). All stats are specifically for the original (completed) 36k fic. It individually beats out every possible stat for every other fic in the series as well as the series as a whole. (Note: The overall series is 44k words long.)
2. Lucy Skywalker series | 163 bookmarks | 406 kudos (The Jedi and the Sith Lord) | genderbent characters: Luke Skywalker (-> Lucy Skywalker)
This is a genderbent AU that mostly, but not completely, sticks to the rails of canon until the end of the ESB timeline, at which point it swerves into the "real" AU. The Jedi and the Sith Lord is the sequel to The Imperial Menace/the ESB plot, and the third fic in the main series, focusing on the consequences of Vader capturing Lucy. It's technically completed at 70k, but only in the sense that it explores what happens to/with Lucy and Vader until the nature of her captivity fundamentally changes, and everything after that will be a separate fic but hasn't been written yet. Although none of the individual fics have as many bookmarks as the series as a whole, my #2, #3, and #4 most bookmarked genderbent fics are all for the Lucyverse. (Note: the overall series is 129k words long.)
3. Love, Pride & Delicacy | 25 bookmarks | 163 kudos | genderbent characters: Fitzwilliam Darcy (-> Catherine Darcy, for convenience)
This is an actual Elizabeth/f!Darcy "what if" femslash AU rather than a retelling, though a slow one—it's still early in the overall story at 25k. It's also placed in the original P&P setting. There is no wider series.
4. The Lady of Gondor | 25 bookmarks | 119 kudos (we also are daughters of the great) | genderbent characters: Faramir (-> Fíriel)
This is a deeply self-indulgent Aragorn/f!Faramir/Éowyn AU, though it's not only a WIP but split into different vaguely related fics (some of which are also WIPs!) about some aspect of the verse in relation to Fíriel. I think the norms of Gondor and Middle-earth make the gender change particularly significant (in some ways more than any other verse), so actual plot and relationship changes tend to be the focus. The kudos are for the specific linked fic, which is a WIP at nearly 5k and the most Éowyn-centric of them. (Note: the overall series is about 9.5k words long.)
5. The Edge of Darkness | 17 bookmarks | 106 kudos | genderbent characters: Tarrlok (-> Taraka)
This is a genderbent f!Tarrlok AU, though told entirely from Noatak/Amon's perspective, and to some extent more about the impact on him than on Taraka herself (though she's extremely important to the fic). Even more than that, the linked fic is focused on the effect of the change on their family dynamics as children, until teenage Noatak leaves her behind per canon. The fic can look like a retelling à la First Impressions, since the basic plot points don't change, but the larger series is on course to swerve into full "what if" territory as well. However, like First Impressions, these stats are all for the completed opening fic (18k) and not the longer WIP series (32k), which is temporarily paused at the point where 37-year-old Taraka openly identifies Amon as Noatak. CW: child abuse.
6. Blood and Fire | 16 bookmarks | 67 kudos | genderbent characters: Tarrlok (-> Taraka) and Noatak (-> Nataka)
This is a dark(er) AU of The Edge of Darkness in which Noatak/Amon is also genderbent, and the bloodbending siblings never separated. Taraka fled home with Nataka back in the day, they only grew closer (...too close), and although Taraka still ended up on the Republic City council, her true loyalty is to Amon. She promptly turns Korra over when Amon shows up, which is where the fic begins; it's told entirely through Korra's attempts to navigate her circumstances as a prisoner of the Equalists. CW: incest, complicated F/F/F dubcon??? emotional bonding kink with occasional violence yet little overt romance and no sex. I am what I am. The stats are for the completed (though deliberately ambiguous) main fic, which is 10k, and not the side fics or the series as a whole (13k).
7. The Queer Rogue One AU | 12 bookmarks | 57 kudos (the words we've both fallen under) | genderbent characters: Cassian Andor (-> Cassia Andor)
This is, on one level, a relatively straightforward genderbent!Cassian AU that is more or less complete at 13k. The underlying concepts are: a) what if my male fave was a hot lesbian and my ship was f/f and b) what if we headcanon every single member of the main team as queer in some capacity :D and c) the SW universe is so blatantly patriarchal in the films that it's a particularly interesting setting for exploring the effects of the gender change on someone like Cassia, a female revolutionary and spy :D :D. It's a little challenging to properly evaluate where it sits wrt stats because I revised the scattered, vaguely connected scraps of the universe into a single fic through both sentence-level revisions and significant additions, but that revision is only on Tumblr (where the link currently goes to, sorry) and my GoogleDrive, not AO3. It's not even a series in my heart! But it is on AO3. Evaluate as you will, but when I finally get around to converting the AO3 version to the correct format this may or may not change. For now this is where it goes by AO3 stats.
8. Daughters of Númenor series | 5 bookmarks | 33 kudos (the voices of the sea) | genderbent characters: all Númenórean throwbacks in LOTR, but specifically Aragorn (-> Aranor), Faramir (-> Míriel), Denethor (-> Andreth), and Imrahil (-> Imraphel)
As might be guessed, this is an AU where every Númenórean throwback mentioned in LOTR is genderbent (in the backstory, this also includes Ivriniel and Finduilas of Dol Amroth, who become Túrin, Prince of Dol Amroth, and Gwindor of Dol Amroth). It's Aranor/Míriel and definitely focused on them despite the broader change (where Arwen is a non-factor for the OT3 in The Lady of Gondor because she went to Valinor with Celebrían, she actually is present in Middle-earth in this series, though unfortunately very straight). While Fíriel in The Lady of Gondor was never expected to be a warrior and gets on reasonably well with Denethor, this AU is more about the broader effects—so even though we rarely see f!Denethor/Andreth, it's significant that she was a trailblazer as a female warrior, loremaster, and ultimately the first female ruler of Gondor, inadvertently laying a foundation that Aranor could build on later (which would have horrified Andreth herself!). The specific fic with the most kudos in the series, linked above, is a nearly 2k fic about the effect of Faramir's canonical visions on Míriel. (Note: the overall series is currently 3k words long.)
Rules I'm applying: 1) I'm only including fic verses that are collectively at least 2000 words long because, well, I do have to go back to the diss, 2) verses comprised of multiple fics are ranked according to either the popularity of the series as a whole or the most popular individual fic (depending on which is higher; not combining them because there's a lot of overlap), 3) I'm considering both bookmarks and kudos in my judgment—we'll see if it makes a difference, and 4) I'm ignoring everything with less than 30 kudos and 5 bookmarks.
1. First Impressions | 215 bookmarks | 876 kudos | genderbent characters: Elizabeth Bennet (-> Henry Bennet) and Fitzwilliam Darcy (-> Catherine Darcy)
This is a genderswapped retelling of Pride and Prejudice set in its original period (not really a true "what if"). All stats are specifically for the original (completed) 36k fic. It individually beats out every possible stat for every other fic in the series as well as the series as a whole. (Note: The overall series is 44k words long.)
2. Lucy Skywalker series | 163 bookmarks | 406 kudos (The Jedi and the Sith Lord) | genderbent characters: Luke Skywalker (-> Lucy Skywalker)
This is a genderbent AU that mostly, but not completely, sticks to the rails of canon until the end of the ESB timeline, at which point it swerves into the "real" AU. The Jedi and the Sith Lord is the sequel to The Imperial Menace/the ESB plot, and the third fic in the main series, focusing on the consequences of Vader capturing Lucy. It's technically completed at 70k, but only in the sense that it explores what happens to/with Lucy and Vader until the nature of her captivity fundamentally changes, and everything after that will be a separate fic but hasn't been written yet. Although none of the individual fics have as many bookmarks as the series as a whole, my #2, #3, and #4 most bookmarked genderbent fics are all for the Lucyverse. (Note: the overall series is 129k words long.)
3. Love, Pride & Delicacy | 25 bookmarks | 163 kudos | genderbent characters: Fitzwilliam Darcy (-> Catherine Darcy, for convenience)
This is an actual Elizabeth/f!Darcy "what if" femslash AU rather than a retelling, though a slow one—it's still early in the overall story at 25k. It's also placed in the original P&P setting. There is no wider series.
4. The Lady of Gondor | 25 bookmarks | 119 kudos (we also are daughters of the great) | genderbent characters: Faramir (-> Fíriel)
This is a deeply self-indulgent Aragorn/f!Faramir/Éowyn AU, though it's not only a WIP but split into different vaguely related fics (some of which are also WIPs!) about some aspect of the verse in relation to Fíriel. I think the norms of Gondor and Middle-earth make the gender change particularly significant (in some ways more than any other verse), so actual plot and relationship changes tend to be the focus. The kudos are for the specific linked fic, which is a WIP at nearly 5k and the most Éowyn-centric of them. (Note: the overall series is about 9.5k words long.)
5. The Edge of Darkness | 17 bookmarks | 106 kudos | genderbent characters: Tarrlok (-> Taraka)
This is a genderbent f!Tarrlok AU, though told entirely from Noatak/Amon's perspective, and to some extent more about the impact on him than on Taraka herself (though she's extremely important to the fic). Even more than that, the linked fic is focused on the effect of the change on their family dynamics as children, until teenage Noatak leaves her behind per canon. The fic can look like a retelling à la First Impressions, since the basic plot points don't change, but the larger series is on course to swerve into full "what if" territory as well. However, like First Impressions, these stats are all for the completed opening fic (18k) and not the longer WIP series (32k), which is temporarily paused at the point where 37-year-old Taraka openly identifies Amon as Noatak. CW: child abuse.
6. Blood and Fire | 16 bookmarks | 67 kudos | genderbent characters: Tarrlok (-> Taraka) and Noatak (-> Nataka)
This is a dark(er) AU of The Edge of Darkness in which Noatak/Amon is also genderbent, and the bloodbending siblings never separated. Taraka fled home with Nataka back in the day, they only grew closer (...too close), and although Taraka still ended up on the Republic City council, her true loyalty is to Amon. She promptly turns Korra over when Amon shows up, which is where the fic begins; it's told entirely through Korra's attempts to navigate her circumstances as a prisoner of the Equalists. CW: incest, complicated F/F/F dubcon??? emotional bonding kink with occasional violence yet little overt romance and no sex. I am what I am. The stats are for the completed (though deliberately ambiguous) main fic, which is 10k, and not the side fics or the series as a whole (13k).
7. The Queer Rogue One AU | 12 bookmarks | 57 kudos (the words we've both fallen under) | genderbent characters: Cassian Andor (-> Cassia Andor)
This is, on one level, a relatively straightforward genderbent!Cassian AU that is more or less complete at 13k. The underlying concepts are: a) what if my male fave was a hot lesbian and my ship was f/f and b) what if we headcanon every single member of the main team as queer in some capacity :D and c) the SW universe is so blatantly patriarchal in the films that it's a particularly interesting setting for exploring the effects of the gender change on someone like Cassia, a female revolutionary and spy :D :D. It's a little challenging to properly evaluate where it sits wrt stats because I revised the scattered, vaguely connected scraps of the universe into a single fic through both sentence-level revisions and significant additions, but that revision is only on Tumblr (where the link currently goes to, sorry) and my GoogleDrive, not AO3. It's not even a series in my heart! But it is on AO3. Evaluate as you will, but when I finally get around to converting the AO3 version to the correct format this may or may not change. For now this is where it goes by AO3 stats.
8. Daughters of Númenor series | 5 bookmarks | 33 kudos (the voices of the sea) | genderbent characters: all Númenórean throwbacks in LOTR, but specifically Aragorn (-> Aranor), Faramir (-> Míriel), Denethor (-> Andreth), and Imrahil (-> Imraphel)
As might be guessed, this is an AU where every Númenórean throwback mentioned in LOTR is genderbent (in the backstory, this also includes Ivriniel and Finduilas of Dol Amroth, who become Túrin, Prince of Dol Amroth, and Gwindor of Dol Amroth). It's Aranor/Míriel and definitely focused on them despite the broader change (where Arwen is a non-factor for the OT3 in The Lady of Gondor because she went to Valinor with Celebrían, she actually is present in Middle-earth in this series, though unfortunately very straight). While Fíriel in The Lady of Gondor was never expected to be a warrior and gets on reasonably well with Denethor, this AU is more about the broader effects—so even though we rarely see f!Denethor/Andreth, it's significant that she was a trailblazer as a female warrior, loremaster, and ultimately the first female ruler of Gondor, inadvertently laying a foundation that Aranor could build on later (which would have horrified Andreth herself!). The specific fic with the most kudos in the series, linked above, is a nearly 2k fic about the effect of Faramir's canonical visions on Míriel. (Note: the overall series is currently 3k words long.)
Most used tags!
Apr. 29th, 2024 09:17 amDigging up the links to so many DW tags got me wondering what tags I've actually used more than any others over here. It will probably look different after I'm done cross-posting, and maybe I'll check again then. But as of right now, the evening of 29 April 2024, this is every tag I've used over 100 times since my first post on 19 July 2009—
A. Tags used over 500 times:
1. #site: tumblr
This is far and away my most commonly used tag (used 1739 times), mainly because I've been cross-posting old Tumblr posts to Dreamwidth for years now, but also because I use it for every post referring to basically anything going on at Tumblr as well as the cross-posts.
2. #fandom: star wars
This feels like the "real" #1 tag, used 668 times and beating out all other fandoms (and indeed, everything). I suspect this is partly because I got into SW after making my DW account, but at a time when journal fandom was still quite active, so one of my most intense periods of SW fannishness was based here (or synced with lj, so the content is here as well). And then when you add in SW cross-posts and "overflow" material from Tumblr once Disney SW got kicking, especially after Rogue One, it's enough for the SW tag to jump ahead of every other tag but the Tumblr one.
3. #genre: meta
I periodically whine about feeling like I'm perceived more as a meta writer than a fic writer, even though I care more about fic and derive far more joy from it ... but I've tagged 667 posts with the meta tag and far less with any fic-related tag. In fairness, I originally conceived as "meta" as basically any post talking about a canon or fandom that wasn't fic, no matter how abrupt, so things I wouldn't really describe as "meta" these days fell under the tag until pretty recently. Even so, I've posted a lot more serious meta than fic!
4. #fandom: austen
The only surprise here is that this one wasn't even higher. I've tagged 640 posts with it over the years, and if you've followed me on Tumblr for awhile, you know there's only more coming. I'm pretty sure it'll beat out SW in the end for sheer quantity.
5. #fandom: middle-earth
While the previous three tags are clustered pretty closely together, there's a jump from the 640 Austen posts to a mere 505 Tolkien posts. This is partly because a bunch of my Tolkien stuff never made it onto Dreamwidth (that is, it happened on sites that are now dead or on lj before Dreamwidth was ever founded, or much later, was posted over at Tumblr and much of it hasn't made its way back over here). It's still one of my biggest fandoms, obviously; SW, Austen, and Tolkien will probably always be the Big Three for me.
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A. Tags used over 500 times:
1. #site: tumblr
This is far and away my most commonly used tag (used 1739 times), mainly because I've been cross-posting old Tumblr posts to Dreamwidth for years now, but also because I use it for every post referring to basically anything going on at Tumblr as well as the cross-posts.
2. #fandom: star wars
This feels like the "real" #1 tag, used 668 times and beating out all other fandoms (and indeed, everything). I suspect this is partly because I got into SW after making my DW account, but at a time when journal fandom was still quite active, so one of my most intense periods of SW fannishness was based here (or synced with lj, so the content is here as well). And then when you add in SW cross-posts and "overflow" material from Tumblr once Disney SW got kicking, especially after Rogue One, it's enough for the SW tag to jump ahead of every other tag but the Tumblr one.
3. #genre: meta
I periodically whine about feeling like I'm perceived more as a meta writer than a fic writer, even though I care more about fic and derive far more joy from it ... but I've tagged 667 posts with the meta tag and far less with any fic-related tag. In fairness, I originally conceived as "meta" as basically any post talking about a canon or fandom that wasn't fic, no matter how abrupt, so things I wouldn't really describe as "meta" these days fell under the tag until pretty recently. Even so, I've posted a lot more serious meta than fic!
4. #fandom: austen
The only surprise here is that this one wasn't even higher. I've tagged 640 posts with it over the years, and if you've followed me on Tumblr for awhile, you know there's only more coming. I'm pretty sure it'll beat out SW in the end for sheer quantity.
5. #fandom: middle-earth
While the previous three tags are clustered pretty closely together, there's a jump from the 640 Austen posts to a mere 505 Tolkien posts. This is partly because a bunch of my Tolkien stuff never made it onto Dreamwidth (that is, it happened on sites that are now dead or on lj before Dreamwidth was ever founded, or much later, was posted over at Tumblr and much of it hasn't made its way back over here). It's still one of my biggest fandoms, obviously; SW, Austen, and Tolkien will probably always be the Big Three for me.
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Tumblr crosspost (4 February 2021)
Apr. 28th, 2024 06:24 pmI’ve gotten a bunch of new followers recently and I’m not sure why—but regardless, hi!
[ETA 4/28/2024: I'm cross-posting this one mainly for record-keeping purposes, though I've added Dreamwidth-relevant clarifications in brackets. I've also been recently fixing, consolidating, and adding some DW tags for a more consistent system over here, so some older posts are only under the tags for the relevant fandoms and characters rather than the specific book, show, or film they're referencing. Anything Austen-related is under #fandom: austen, say, but many of my older Pride and Prejudice-specific posts don't have the P&P tag because I instituted the specific tag more recently.]
Run-down: my name is Elizabeth and I’m a 30-odd, US American PhD student. I study 16th-, 17th-, and 18th-century British literature, primarily 18th [ETA: and early seventeenth, these days]. I also kind of hate academia at this point, lol, so you’ll see a lot of complaining about it unless you block #ivory tower blogging [DW tag: #uni and academia for anything related to academia, while #complaining covers exactly what you'd expect].
I talk reasonably often about mental health issues; I have autism, bipolar II, and anxiety, and my general tag is #rare breed of attack unicorn [DW tag: the same; I also tend to tag the specific disorders more often over here, since I don't have to worry about them going into a site-wide autism tag or whatnot; e.g., posts about anxiety are tagged with both #rare breed of attack unicorn and #anxiety].
I write original fiction in addition to fanfic and angst about it; the tag is #original fic rambles [DW tag: #original fiction, though plenty of it is either locked or under a different account], and vaguer or more general writing stuff is just #writing [DW tag: the same]. Rambling about my fanfic is under #fic talk [DW tag: #genre: fic talk, usually accompanied by a specific tag for the fic or verse, such as #fic talk: lucy skywalker for my f!Luke Skywalker fics].
My main fandoms and other tags include:
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[ETA 4/28/2024: I'm cross-posting this one mainly for record-keeping purposes, though I've added Dreamwidth-relevant clarifications in brackets. I've also been recently fixing, consolidating, and adding some DW tags for a more consistent system over here, so some older posts are only under the tags for the relevant fandoms and characters rather than the specific book, show, or film they're referencing. Anything Austen-related is under #fandom: austen, say, but many of my older Pride and Prejudice-specific posts don't have the P&P tag because I instituted the specific tag more recently.]
Run-down: my name is Elizabeth and I’m a 30-odd, US American PhD student. I study 16th-, 17th-, and 18th-century British literature, primarily 18th [ETA: and early seventeenth, these days]. I also kind of hate academia at this point, lol, so you’ll see a lot of complaining about it unless you block #ivory tower blogging [DW tag: #uni and academia for anything related to academia, while #complaining covers exactly what you'd expect].
I talk reasonably often about mental health issues; I have autism, bipolar II, and anxiety, and my general tag is #rare breed of attack unicorn [DW tag: the same; I also tend to tag the specific disorders more often over here, since I don't have to worry about them going into a site-wide autism tag or whatnot; e.g., posts about anxiety are tagged with both #rare breed of attack unicorn and #anxiety].
I write original fiction in addition to fanfic and angst about it; the tag is #original fic rambles [DW tag: #original fiction, though plenty of it is either locked or under a different account], and vaguer or more general writing stuff is just #writing [DW tag: the same]. Rambling about my fanfic is under #fic talk [DW tag: #genre: fic talk, usually accompanied by a specific tag for the fic or verse, such as #fic talk: lucy skywalker for my f!Luke Skywalker fics].
My main fandoms and other tags include:
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Tumblr crosspost (18 January 2021)
Apr. 13th, 2024 06:34 pmme on Twitter under my pro pseudonym: retweeting from SFWA and various publishers/editors, occasional whining, writing advice, playlists, chatter about my projects
me on Twitter as Anghraine: WHINE WHINE WHINE WHINE
Tagged: #okay and occasionally korvira
Why the villains of Legend of Korra matter
Apr. 7th, 2024 10:50 pmMy best friend and I were talking about the ways that Legend of Korra does and doesn't work for us, and particularly about the way it feels very erratic on a craft level where ATLA is pretty consistently good to great, yet ultimately LOK engages us both more. Inevitably, we wound around to a point of firm agreement: excepting Unalaq and Vaatu in B2, we consider the main villains of LOK a lot more personally and thematically interesting than Ozai and this has a weird effect on LOK's politics.
I drafted a far longer post about this [ETA: lmao], but anyway: there are many obviously progressive elements to ATLA. Ozai as a villain is fundamentally aligned with things antithetical to progressive ideals. He is a hereditary autocrat carrying on a multi-generational campaign of imperialism that historically (in the show) has been justified by familiar bigoted, reactionary rationales about civilizing and bringing prosperity to other cultures. He's overwhelmingly authoritarian in every aspect of life—as a ruler, as a conqueror, as a father, as a husband. He's less a person than an embodiment of domination, imperialism, autocracy. And the ultimate solution that ATLA provides for the problem of Ozai is 1) a greater power defeating him in combat and 2) replacing him with a good autocrat.
That's not a charitable characterization of a beautifully executed and emotionally satisfying conclusion. And I think the underlying rationale for that resolution owes more to ATLA's mythic and fantastic structure than to any serious commitment to the "what we really need is a good dictator" form of political discourse that has unfortunately become increasingly common. But solving the problem of imperialism with a Chosen One and a kinder and softer absolute ruler over the imperialists is not ... exactly a radical solution, let's say. It's not that different from, say, Lord of the Rings.
It works for ATLA's story! I just don't feel that this resolution is particularly daring or transgressive in the way that it is sometimes represented as being. Other aspects of ATLA are much more daring and revolutionary than this, but the core politics just don't feel that way to me.
LOK, by contrast, has a lot of centrist-at-best baggage. It would take awhile to detail all of this (the fantasy copaganda is probably the most obvious), but it's especially apparent with the villains. LOK essentially has a revolving door of major villains who are each very different in personality, goals, motives, politics, and symbolic alignments, but thematically unified by one very familiar concept that is obvious even before it's explicitly spelled out in B4.
I've talked about this before in relation to LOK and had plenty of criticism of it (here and here), but the basic idea is this: What if the villain actually has the right idea, but just goes too far?
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I drafted a far longer post about this [ETA: lmao], but anyway: there are many obviously progressive elements to ATLA. Ozai as a villain is fundamentally aligned with things antithetical to progressive ideals. He is a hereditary autocrat carrying on a multi-generational campaign of imperialism that historically (in the show) has been justified by familiar bigoted, reactionary rationales about civilizing and bringing prosperity to other cultures. He's overwhelmingly authoritarian in every aspect of life—as a ruler, as a conqueror, as a father, as a husband. He's less a person than an embodiment of domination, imperialism, autocracy. And the ultimate solution that ATLA provides for the problem of Ozai is 1) a greater power defeating him in combat and 2) replacing him with a good autocrat.
That's not a charitable characterization of a beautifully executed and emotionally satisfying conclusion. And I think the underlying rationale for that resolution owes more to ATLA's mythic and fantastic structure than to any serious commitment to the "what we really need is a good dictator" form of political discourse that has unfortunately become increasingly common. But solving the problem of imperialism with a Chosen One and a kinder and softer absolute ruler over the imperialists is not ... exactly a radical solution, let's say. It's not that different from, say, Lord of the Rings.
It works for ATLA's story! I just don't feel that this resolution is particularly daring or transgressive in the way that it is sometimes represented as being. Other aspects of ATLA are much more daring and revolutionary than this, but the core politics just don't feel that way to me.
LOK, by contrast, has a lot of centrist-at-best baggage. It would take awhile to detail all of this (the fantasy copaganda is probably the most obvious), but it's especially apparent with the villains. LOK essentially has a revolving door of major villains who are each very different in personality, goals, motives, politics, and symbolic alignments, but thematically unified by one very familiar concept that is obvious even before it's explicitly spelled out in B4.
I've talked about this before in relation to LOK and had plenty of criticism of it (here and here), but the basic idea is this: What if the villain actually has the right idea, but just goes too far?
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On genderbending & female characters
Mar. 19th, 2024 10:09 pmBack in January (of 2024!), I saw
sqbr's fantastic post on gender, female characters, genderswap, and original female characters. It's here and it's great. A nuanced, complicated take on this kind of genderbending is basically a bat signal for me personally, and at first I was going to comment directly to them, but my response grew as I thought about it, so I figured I'd put my response here instead of spamming their blog. I've basically been thinking about it off and on for the last two months. If you're reading this, I'd advise you to check out their post.
So, backing up a bit: I've often found the genderswap/genderbending and original female character (OFC) discourses to be—well, in all honesty, incoherent, unfair, and deeply stupid most of the time. I feel like a lot of "the discourse" around these things is contingent on 1) a “why are we not about me” approach to gender and 2) a sort of internalized fandom hierarchy, especially with regard to original female characters vs canon female characters. As I see it, all characters are someone’s OCs. As a consequence, the framework in which female characters produced by a generally male or male-dominated creator/creative group should be considered more authentically female than female characters produced by fans who are very often actual women can seem profoundly unjust and also simply very strange.
For instance, I love a lot of the female characters in Robert Jordan’s The Wheel of Time and would not argue that they aren't actually women. Moiraine Damodred is one of my favorite female characters in fantasy, partly because she's a woman in a role that goes to men most of the time. But the "fictional women created by a male author" vibe is intense and inescapable in these books. The idea that fans' OFCs reflect a less authentic femaleness than Jordan's powerful women getting sexily spanked over and over feels pretty bizarre.
And this extends to genderswap/genderbending, given that when influential people in Hollywood or the broader entertainment industry change a male character's gender to female (either the character was previously conceptualized as male in the creative process, or the work is an adaptation of a source in which the character was male), the same wing of fandom that condemns fannish genderbending tends to be completely supportive and to see the new version as a legitimate female character. We can see this with Ripley, Azula, Joan Watson, etc. And even going the other way, nobody seems to think Luke Skywalker is somehow not a real male character even though George Lucas kept changing his gender, or that there was anything wrong with Lucas doing that. The condemnations of genderbending cis male characters to female ones are pretty specifically about fans doing this, especially female fans.
That's a longer rant than I meant it to be, but the reason I bring it up is because this has always struck me as a baffling argument as well as an unfair one. But I think
sqbr's post highlights an important distinction between arguments about characters' femaleness and arguments about characters' female characterness, if that makes sense. The ways in which female characters tend to be framed by the narratives they appear in shape our sense of what female characters are and what is desirable for them to be.
For me, M->F genderbending is partly about my own wobbly, weak sense of gender, but also partly an expression of affection. It's satisfying to give the kind of centrality and/or Very Special Boy treatment that my male faves typically get to a girl or woman, and to explore the ways in which the kind of frameworks typically given to male characters collide with generally patriarchal settings, all without sacrificing my fave. So, say, my female Luke Skywalker has to deal with The Space Patriarchy and with being Special and Important and centered in a way typically reserved for male characters.
And that's often a major part of the appeal of M->F genderbending for me—a female character getting the structural narrative benefits typically reserved for various kinds of male characters, but without fundamentally disrupting the structure of the cast as given in canon. So turning Luke into Lucy feels fundamentally different to me, and much more satisfying, than inventing, say, a female triplet to take his narrative place.
And this is basically the exact opposite motivation as the one described in
sqbr's post, of relating to female characters because of the narrative framework typically given them. I don't think either of us are wrong, factually or morally, we just sometimes have different tastes in terms of how we do fandom and gender.
I do think they're very correct about how a lot of female characters who are kind of presented as badass or whatever by way of receiving traits often assigned to male characters don't hit the same note as female characters who are given the kind of narrative framing often assigned to male characters. And I also think
sqbr is right that what we all get out of female characters, what we find appealing in them, or gratifying, or admirable (or cringey, reminiscent of painful RL experiences, an annoying trope given female form Yet Again, etc), is hugely variable between people in ways that can actually be entirely legitimate for those different people. I've known female SW fans, for instance, who couldn't latch onto Leia the way I did because of the ways she's sidelined by the narrative structure of the OT (particularly ROTJ). I think that's perfectly fine, actually, even though I don't feel the same.
In addition, I had some amorphous thoughts about how when canon female characters click for me, they tend to really click, which
sqbr also discusses in their post. An easy example for me is Attolia Irene in The Queen of Attolia, whose experiences and choices are profoundly shaped by patriarchy and who is given the kind of messy sympathy and resourceful triumph that is often reserved for characters like Gen and who is beautiful in a way I personally find hot as a lesbian. I briefly thought about what f!Eugenides/Irene would be like—cool to be sure, but tbh I'm not that interested because I'm so invested in Irene specifically.
Sort of relatedly, I do find it annoying when there's a discussion going on about favorite female characters in a canon, especially a male-dominated canon, and people respond with canonically male characters "because he's a lesbian to me" or whatever. I’ll defend a lot when it comes to genderbending, but that’s not cool.
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So, backing up a bit: I've often found the genderswap/genderbending and original female character (OFC) discourses to be—well, in all honesty, incoherent, unfair, and deeply stupid most of the time. I feel like a lot of "the discourse" around these things is contingent on 1) a “why are we not about me” approach to gender and 2) a sort of internalized fandom hierarchy, especially with regard to original female characters vs canon female characters. As I see it, all characters are someone’s OCs. As a consequence, the framework in which female characters produced by a generally male or male-dominated creator/creative group should be considered more authentically female than female characters produced by fans who are very often actual women can seem profoundly unjust and also simply very strange.
For instance, I love a lot of the female characters in Robert Jordan’s The Wheel of Time and would not argue that they aren't actually women. Moiraine Damodred is one of my favorite female characters in fantasy, partly because she's a woman in a role that goes to men most of the time. But the "fictional women created by a male author" vibe is intense and inescapable in these books. The idea that fans' OFCs reflect a less authentic femaleness than Jordan's powerful women getting sexily spanked over and over feels pretty bizarre.
And this extends to genderswap/genderbending, given that when influential people in Hollywood or the broader entertainment industry change a male character's gender to female (either the character was previously conceptualized as male in the creative process, or the work is an adaptation of a source in which the character was male), the same wing of fandom that condemns fannish genderbending tends to be completely supportive and to see the new version as a legitimate female character. We can see this with Ripley, Azula, Joan Watson, etc. And even going the other way, nobody seems to think Luke Skywalker is somehow not a real male character even though George Lucas kept changing his gender, or that there was anything wrong with Lucas doing that. The condemnations of genderbending cis male characters to female ones are pretty specifically about fans doing this, especially female fans.
That's a longer rant than I meant it to be, but the reason I bring it up is because this has always struck me as a baffling argument as well as an unfair one. But I think
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For me, M->F genderbending is partly about my own wobbly, weak sense of gender, but also partly an expression of affection. It's satisfying to give the kind of centrality and/or Very Special Boy treatment that my male faves typically get to a girl or woman, and to explore the ways in which the kind of frameworks typically given to male characters collide with generally patriarchal settings, all without sacrificing my fave. So, say, my female Luke Skywalker has to deal with The Space Patriarchy and with being Special and Important and centered in a way typically reserved for male characters.
And that's often a major part of the appeal of M->F genderbending for me—a female character getting the structural narrative benefits typically reserved for various kinds of male characters, but without fundamentally disrupting the structure of the cast as given in canon. So turning Luke into Lucy feels fundamentally different to me, and much more satisfying, than inventing, say, a female triplet to take his narrative place.
And this is basically the exact opposite motivation as the one described in
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I do think they're very correct about how a lot of female characters who are kind of presented as badass or whatever by way of receiving traits often assigned to male characters don't hit the same note as female characters who are given the kind of narrative framing often assigned to male characters. And I also think
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In addition, I had some amorphous thoughts about how when canon female characters click for me, they tend to really click, which
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Sort of relatedly, I do find it annoying when there's a discussion going on about favorite female characters in a canon, especially a male-dominated canon, and people respond with canonically male characters "because he's a lesbian to me" or whatever. I’ll defend a lot when it comes to genderbending, but that’s not cool.
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Mar. 18th, 2024 04:16 pmThe user suyinsimp responded to my fic Ten Facts About Tarrlok, originally posted on Tumblr for a Tarrlok Appreciation Day in 2012. It's also at AO3. suyinsimp said:
#you have the absolute best characterization of tarrlok ever #noatak too for that matter
I replied:
Wow, thank you very, very much! I really enjoyed writing them and I’m still immensely fond of them both.
Tagged: #apart from taraka i think the last lok fic i wrote was years ago #so it's really nice to know that people are still reading and enjoying them!
#you have the absolute best characterization of tarrlok ever #noatak too for that matter
I replied:
Wow, thank you very, very much! I really enjoyed writing them and I’m still immensely fond of them both.
Tagged: #apart from taraka i think the last lok fic i wrote was years ago #so it's really nice to know that people are still reading and enjoying them!
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Mar. 18th, 2024 01:53 pmI reblogged this gifset of Tarrlok on the boat, about to commit murder-suicide + Tarrlok and Noatak playing together as children + Noatak's silent tear as he passively acquiesces.
Tagged: #i feel like suffering #:(((( #tiny noatak's concerned face always gets me ;_;
Tagged: #i feel like suffering #:(((( #tiny noatak's concerned face always gets me ;_;
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Mar. 18th, 2024 08:39 amI reblogged this post of mine about Youtube's algorithm being bad and added:
like, really bad

like, really bad

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Tagged: #WHY #literally all i watch are atla/lok clips and writing videos #and it's like ... oh would you like to see ben shapiro's ranking of the sw movies?? #me: NO. NO I WOULD NOT
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Mar. 17th, 2024 10:24 amI’ve complained about Tumblr’s algorithm, but wow is Youtube’s bad.
Tagged: #i love sw itself but ... so many sw dudebros #crying about kathleen kennedy ruining their childhoods or whatever the fuck #and power rankings #and x ripped off c #and this writing youtuber i have only watched ... once or twice bc i find her persona so intensely grating #is CONSTANTLY recced #bleh #at least it sends me clips from atla and lok!
Tagged: #i love sw itself but ... so many sw dudebros #crying about kathleen kennedy ruining their childhoods or whatever the fuck #and power rankings #and x ripped off c #and this writing youtuber i have only watched ... once or twice bc i find her persona so intensely grating #is CONSTANTLY recced #bleh #at least it sends me clips from atla and lok!
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Feb. 29th, 2024 02:59 pmxtoad on Tumblr asked:
Do you think that a natural progression for Bolin might be to straight-up join the Air Nomads ? It would fit his desire to help people, he's pretty much hitched to an Air Nomad already and it could be an interesting debut to a new policy of diversification for Tenzin & Co, perhaps followed by a similar movement in the other nations ?
I replied:
Hmm. The Air Nomads under Tenzin already had non-airbenders with the Air Acolytes, so it wouldn’t be at all strange for someone to join. I’m not sure Bolin really fits their mentality and practices, though—he could work with the Air Nomads without being one himself.
Tagged: #but also i'm not a fan of his so i might not be the best judge tbh
Do you think that a natural progression for Bolin might be to straight-up join the Air Nomads ? It would fit his desire to help people, he's pretty much hitched to an Air Nomad already and it could be an interesting debut to a new policy of diversification for Tenzin & Co, perhaps followed by a similar movement in the other nations ?
I replied:
Hmm. The Air Nomads under Tenzin already had non-airbenders with the Air Acolytes, so it wouldn’t be at all strange for someone to join. I’m not sure Bolin really fits their mentality and practices, though—he could work with the Air Nomads without being one himself.
Tagged: #but also i'm not a fan of his so i might not be the best judge tbh
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Feb. 29th, 2024 02:19 pmxtoad on Tumblr said:
I've watched a series of videos by Kay & Skittles on Youtube that makes me think that a grey Zaheer could be one who interacts with the people he claims to want to liberate and tries to build his revolution from the ground-up rather than in a purely top-down manner.
I replied:
Hmm, that would certainly be an improved Zaheer.
I guess my difficulty is that it seems like that version would be so improved as to be essentially a good guy. I do think “what if the villains were actually heroic exemplars of their ideologies” is an interesting concept, it’s just not quite the one I’m struggling with—it’s making Noatak and Zaheer fall in that morally-dubious-but-not-evil zone where I’m kind of pulling a blank.
I've watched a series of videos by Kay & Skittles on Youtube that makes me think that a grey Zaheer could be one who interacts with the people he claims to want to liberate and tries to build his revolution from the ground-up rather than in a purely top-down manner.
I replied:
Hmm, that would certainly be an improved Zaheer.
I guess my difficulty is that it seems like that version would be so improved as to be essentially a good guy. I do think “what if the villains were actually heroic exemplars of their ideologies” is an interesting concept, it’s just not quite the one I’m struggling with—it’s making Noatak and Zaheer fall in that morally-dubious-but-not-evil zone where I’m kind of pulling a blank.
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I don’t remember Zaheer’s plot very well, but wouldn’t the middling-evil version of Amon just be a Very Flawed Activist Leader?
Not the sort who suddenly turns into a supervillain just…while he does achieve SOME good things, he refuses to acknowledge any marginalisations other than his pet Issue exist, is kind of cult-leader-ish, accuses any non-bender who disagrees with him of being Part of the System, any groups with slightly different approaches of being Evil and Wrong etc.
You could have him act like the Rachel Dolezai’s of this world, who decide they can run a civil rights organisation best despite being a member of the relevantly privileged class, and thus are 100% justified in painting their face to mimic an made-up angsty marginalised backstory. (Not that being a non-bender is the same as being black, but she’s the best known example I can think of) Or you could have him be open about being a non-bender from the start, and the fact he talks over and silences actual non-benders who disagree with is him one of his obvious issues during the season.
And then at the end you’ve got all these other actual-non-bender activists who over the show have been shown to have idealogical and practical conflicts with Amon, and so are in a position to continue the work less terribly once he’s gone. Like a less simplisticly Good Marginalised Folk Support The Status Quo version of Magneto vs Professor X in Xmen. Have one of them be a major secondary character working with Korra, so it’s less benders vs civil rights group and more benders-and-non-benders vs this ONE civil rights group.
I replied:
Hmm, that makes sense! I was thinking of middling Amon as a little darker—still carrying off the Amon persona to some extent, and trying to figure out how he could manage that without going full villain. But yeah, I think “he refuses to acknowledge any marginalisations other than his pet Issue exist, is kind of cult-leader-ish, accuses any non-bender who disagrees with him of being Part of the System, any groups with slightly different approaches of being Evil and Wrong etc” have got to be pretty essential to how he operates.
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Feb. 28th, 2024 04:01 pmchidorinnnnn sent this ask:
In an AU where Aang was NOT the last airbender (because there were people who got away, assimilated within other cities/cultures, etc.), I wonder if it would’ve made sense for Zaheer to be an airbender from day 1 (without any spirit world shenanigans from canon book 2), descended from a population that had rejected the teachings of the air temples. Add to that an explicit acknowledgement from the very beginning that Korra was nearly kidnapped as a child by the Red Lotus, and you’ve got maybe a consistent storyline?
I replied:
Hmm. I’m not sure it quite fits with my vague ideas for grey!Zaheer, but it does actually work really well for a different AU where Zaheer is the B1 villain instead of Amon, because I’d been juggling ideas for how it would work without Harmonic Convergence. Thanks!
In an AU where Aang was NOT the last airbender (because there were people who got away, assimilated within other cities/cultures, etc.), I wonder if it would’ve made sense for Zaheer to be an airbender from day 1 (without any spirit world shenanigans from canon book 2), descended from a population that had rejected the teachings of the air temples. Add to that an explicit acknowledgement from the very beginning that Korra was nearly kidnapped as a child by the Red Lotus, and you’ve got maybe a consistent storyline?
I replied:
Hmm. I’m not sure it quite fits with my vague ideas for grey!Zaheer, but it does actually work really well for a different AU where Zaheer is the B1 villain instead of Amon, because I’d been juggling ideas for how it would work without Harmonic Convergence. Thanks!