I think this is good news (probably)
Dec. 8th, 2010 10:34 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
anghraineI just finished my human sexuality course. For my final project, I chose to write about asexuality, of course -- and instead of the five or six pages I expected to write, and which were required by the assignment, it ended up fourteen pages long. I was rushed, so I pretty much just barrelled through, turned it in, and rushed on to the next paper (Lost Girls: Why Stories About Displaced Women Are Transgressive Narratives).
So I got it back yesterday.
PROF: Elizabeth ... Elizabeth ... OH RIGHT THIS ONE.
ME: *gulp*
PROF (pulling it out): This was an excellent paper! A+ of course.
ME: Phew.
PROF: Actually, this was a REALLY GOOD PAPER. Great! I loved it! And the references! There's so little research about this!
ME: That is true. Thank you!
PROF: I think I wrote something ... yes, that it was REALLY EXCELLENT. *bounces a bit* This was great.
ME: Well, um, thanks.
PROF: It's just ... great. Wow.
ME: Um ... I know it's a bit long, but --
PROF: No, it's great. Oh, uh, here you go.
ME: Thank you. *starts packing, really pleased at this little bit of work for asexual visibility*
PROF, still bouncing: Um.
ME: Yes?
PROF: I'm teaching the sexuality course next term.
ME: ... good?
PROF: I'll bringing guest speakers in again...
ME, amiably confused: Cool.
PROF: Could you maybe be one of them?
ME: o_O
Guuuuh.
I mean, YES OF COURSE. I'm -- uh -- yes -- I'd be -- wow. Sure!
PROF: It's at eight, so if that's too early --
ME: THAT WILL BE FINE.
PROF: Wow, thanks so much.
ME: You are very welcome.
... Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, what am I doing, what did I get myself into, I am terrified of crowds and public speaking but -- but -- this is really important and Portland State is big and has big classes and, okay, this is officially the most visibility-making essay I've ever written and OH MY GOD HOW IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?! Yet it's awesome!
And -- I'm such a bad spokesperson for asexuality, but maybe it would be good to have someone who isn't the perfect unassailable asexual? This is a really good thing! But it is also a really scary thing, because EEEEEK SOCIAL PHOBIA. But I'm madly excited too, because, because visibility LIEK WHOA. The text and the curriculum just skate over it, which was deeply frustrating, so I think that's deeply important and he totally got that and was chattering about how wow, there is this erasure and at least he wants to try and do something about it in his class and I think that's huge.
So I'll be giving this presentation next term in a 400-level psych class, and technically, I'm not even a psych major. I don't know what I'll be saying or what I should say, but it needs to be really good.
HELP.
So I got it back yesterday.
PROF: Elizabeth ... Elizabeth ... OH RIGHT THIS ONE.
ME: *gulp*
PROF (pulling it out): This was an excellent paper! A+ of course.
ME: Phew.
PROF: Actually, this was a REALLY GOOD PAPER. Great! I loved it! And the references! There's so little research about this!
ME: That is true. Thank you!
PROF: I think I wrote something ... yes, that it was REALLY EXCELLENT. *bounces a bit* This was great.
ME: Well, um, thanks.
PROF: It's just ... great. Wow.
ME: Um ... I know it's a bit long, but --
PROF: No, it's great. Oh, uh, here you go.
ME: Thank you. *starts packing, really pleased at this little bit of work for asexual visibility*
PROF, still bouncing: Um.
ME: Yes?
PROF: I'm teaching the sexuality course next term.
ME: ... good?
PROF: I'll bringing guest speakers in again...
ME, amiably confused: Cool.
PROF: Could you maybe be one of them?
ME: o_O
Guuuuh.
I mean, YES OF COURSE. I'm -- uh -- yes -- I'd be -- wow. Sure!
PROF: It's at eight, so if that's too early --
ME: THAT WILL BE FINE.
PROF: Wow, thanks so much.
ME: You are very welcome.
... Oh my God, oh my God, oh my God, what am I doing, what did I get myself into, I am terrified of crowds and public speaking but -- but -- this is really important and Portland State is big and has big classes and, okay, this is officially the most visibility-making essay I've ever written and OH MY GOD HOW IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?! Yet it's awesome!
And -- I'm such a bad spokesperson for asexuality, but maybe it would be good to have someone who isn't the perfect unassailable asexual? This is a really good thing! But it is also a really scary thing, because EEEEEK SOCIAL PHOBIA. But I'm madly excited too, because, because visibility LIEK WHOA. The text and the curriculum just skate over it, which was deeply frustrating, so I think that's deeply important and he totally got that and was chattering about how wow, there is this erasure and at least he wants to try and do something about it in his class and I think that's huge.
So I'll be giving this presentation next term in a 400-level psych class, and technically, I'm not even a psych major. I don't know what I'll be saying or what I should say, but it needs to be really good.
HELP.