anghraine: leia hugging luke at the end of esb (luke and leia [hugs!])
I talked on Tumblr awhile ago about how important my Internet friendships have been to me, especially the long-standing ones. I met a lot of my closest online friends either on LiveJournal, Dreamwidth, or Tumblr, and quite a few at least have Dreamwidth accounts + Dreamwidth has played some role in our friendship. And I was trying to remember who I met when, in what context, and was like ... I could just skim my archive page and look, and figured it'd be fun to shout-out a few people! The list is not exhaustive, just a list of when I first met some people as clearly as I could tell.

For context: I was an early Dreamwidth adopter. Before Dreamwidth, I had been deeply entrenched in LJ fandom, and definitely preferred (and still prefer!) a LJ-like platform to things like Tumblr or Twitter. But, like many people, I had a lot of gripes with LJ itself. The idea of "LJ but with ethics, no Strikethrough threat, and no ads ever" sounded really appealing. A number of my LJ friends felt the same way, and I received my invite for the beta version of DW from my friend[personal profile] hl. So I've been here for a long time. According to Wikipedia, Dreamwidth went into beta on April 30, 2009, and left it in 2011. Meanwhile, I made my account on July 7th, 2009, and my first post here was on July 19th of that year.

So!

When I first made my blog in 2009, I mainly talked with[personal profile] hl and[personal profile] tree, whom I already knew from LJ and general Austen fandom circles, and with[personal profile] tulina, whom I met through our ff.net mutual admiration society.

I met a brand new Austen friend here on Dreamwidth, though:[personal profile] sixbeforelunch! For some reason, I thought we'd originally encountered each other later, but no, six has been here for the long haul.

The next year, I made two more friends primarily (as I recall) through Dreamwidth: [personal profile] catie56 and[personal profile] biichan!

I was burning out on the forum-based Austen fandom circles around this time and very consciously selected a fandom that a) I could really sink my teeth into and b) was at least largely upfront about their drama: Star Wars. I originally crossposted a lot of SW fandom stuff from LJ but my activity was increasingly rooted in DW.

Meanwhile, 2011 was a truly hellish year for ace discourse on Tumblr. I was starting to dip my toes into Tumblr at the time, so I was angry and upset about a lot over there. But it was an incredibly good year on Dreamwidth! I stumbled over [personal profile] lotesse's SW fic early in the year and we ended up talking about both SW and other common fandoms and became longtime friends. In September, [personal profile] sathari joined the ongoing Star Wars party and really got what I was trying to do with my fic at the time, and we became friends too. And in November of 2011, I stumbled over [personal profile] sqbr's Austen art, got really excited about it, and as a result, we became good friends across a pretty wide variety of fandoms + fandom as a whole [ETA: actually, [personal profile] sqbr has reminded me that we first encountered each other prior to DW through common fandom friends, and re-reading the 2011 post, I clearly knew who they were, though we didn't directly interact over here until then; 2011 marked a really positive change in a number of my fandom relationships and that was one of the most significant].

I don't recall the exact context, but [personal profile] primeideal and [personal profile] beatrice_otter seem to have found me about 2012, and we're still having intriguing conversations now about different fandoms and original fiction! I already knew [personal profile] wyncatastrophe from LJ, and while we mostly talked via email and FB, some of our conversations started happening via Dreamwidth discussions and communities this year. This indirectly led to me writing a paper on Tolkien for a conference she was involved in (it wasn't a paper that already existed but actually written for that specific conference, and she helped guide me in the ins and outs of the submission process etc), which is the same paper that got me into grad school.

Speaking of ace discourse, I banded together with [personal profile] kaz later in that year, and found that we had even more in common than nuclear rage and sharing a birthday.

My DW social circle doesn't seem to have changed much for a few years after that, in part because I was mainly active on Tumblr and most of my friends were there as well. But I've always personally preferred DW and got somewhat back into the swing of things over here around 2015. I was super into The Borgias at the time (this would, in turn, get me into my PhD program!), which is what led to [personal profile] elperian following me on Tumblr and sticking around for Austen stuff and our very important Rogue One bonding (a tragic but blessed event!!!). I encountered [personal profile] sally_maria in a context I no longer recall, but it was definitely 2015, and was always glad for it. This also seems to be when I started chatting with [personal profile] lizbee on Tumblr and DW—first over Avatar, then SW, then basically anything we had in common.

Another fortuitous DW year was 2016 (otherwise not a great year for obvious US politics reasons, though I did get my MA). I think that [personal profile] brightlady_lise, [personal profile] slashmarks, and [personal profile] zero_pixel_count were all people I knew first from Tumblr, but ultimately talked more with over here.

2017 was pretty quiet in some ways, but [personal profile] elperian and I really started talking frequently over here around then! Then Tumblr made one of their patented terrible decisions in 2018 (the porn ban, maybe?) and I connected with a whole bunch of friends from Tumblr: [personal profile] meneltarma, [personal profile] rosaxx50, [personal profile] kungfunurse, [personal profile] chestnut_pod, [personal profile] stultiloquentia, [personal profile] shadaras, [personal profile] mosylu, [personal profile] incognitajones, and [personal profile] ncfan. All fantastic people from a fairly wide array of fandoms!

And in 2019, my friend [personal profile] rhodanum from Tumblr—we'd been on the same side of both ace discourse and villain discourse—relocated over here! A better place for both of us, to be sure.

Thanks to you all <3
anghraine: the rebel insignia from star wars in the colours of the lesbian flag; text: "lesbian rebel" (lesbian rebel)
Being an ace lesbian can be a hell of an experience sometimes.

#super fun to be in the crossfire! #or tacked-on afterthoughts whose opinions and experiences don't really matter to anyone. also fun!
anghraine: vader extending his lightsaber; text: and now for the airing of grievances! (Default)
I’ve been thinking back on the Fandom Experience, and was remembering the opposite of the vanity searching—some of the odder experiences of being told things directly:
  • I got a comment on a fic asking if leaving it unfinished made me feel desired.
  • I got a comment on a different fic telling me that they knew I wasn’t writing for the ’95 mini-series and that I dislike it, but that they always pictured my Darcy as Colin Firth anyway. Darcy is a) blue-eyed and b) a woman in that fic.
  • I got anonymous hate because I headcanon Luke Skywalker as asexual.
  • A troll apologized for missing my birthday.
  • A random person informed me that my fic was Wrong and Darcy’s mother wouldn’t be Lady Anne but Mrs Darcy, and his uncle should be Lord Matlock. [ETA 3/13/2024: Lady Anne being called "Mrs Darcy" and her brother being "Lord Matlock" are both from the ’95 mini-series and not in the novel; the first seems to be a mistake and the last an invention.]
  • Someone on AO3 told me that my fic was great, and also, it was shitty of me not to respond to comments.
  • Someone told me they had been sent by an anonymous group of haters who wanted me to tag my Silmarillion posts so they didn’t have to see them. (I already was tagging them.)
  • Someone told me that calling The Horse and His Boy racist made me the racist one, actually.
None of these were the end of the world, and my general experience of fandom has been mainly positive, but sometimes it is … really strange.
anghraine: david rintoul as darcy in the 1980 p&p in a red coat (darcy (1980))
So I was trying to go to sleep the other night and decided to vanity search myself at an Austen site I used to frequent (not sure why I thought this would help). But it was weirdly entertaining. Things that turned up:
  • someone annoyed five years ago that I had stopped updating a fic (and the previous version of the fic, at that). I still haven’t updated it.
  • someone who really liked my grey-ace!Darcy fic and someone else who thought it “implausible” even if he were ace
  • someone who thought I’m no longer around because I stopped updating my livejournal
  • someone who thought I’d written an epic about my NOTP; I’d seen this one before, but not the response explaining that I didn’t write it, but am friends with the author (I do not know the author)
  • someone thanking me by name (well, username) for a minor anonymous criticism I had made many years before
  • someone I’ve always liked and admired complimenting my old headcanons :)
anghraine: a picture of grey-white towers starting to glow yellow in the rising sun (minas anor)
[personal profile] jubaah replied to this post:

telperien and boromir… hundreds of emotional crying emojis… perf

I said:

Right?! And now I’m imagining young Boromir learning about this great ruler who refused to have anything to do with marriage and then turned around and authorized a fleet of warships and him just being 😍

Tagged: #boromir's teacher: and tar-telperiën took no interest in middle-earth and- #boromir (age 12): well ACTUALLY #ajklsdf;jkad i know this is one hundred percent not tolkien's intention and it is one hundred percent my headcanon now #telperiën stanning ace boromir is everything
anghraine: illustration of hooded luke; text: born to fight (luke [born to fight])
For no particular reason, some of my fave characters I headcanon as aro-ace:

- Luke Skywalker, #1 space ace always and forever

- Obi-Wan Kenobi genuinely does not get what all this fuss is about

- Tar-Telperiën gets it but does not give a single fuck

- Boromir, her true heir

- Charlotte Lucas!

- Emily from “The Knight’s Tale”; just leave her alone, y’all

- Mary Lennox, who is a kid but never changes in this regard

- Trisana Chandler :D

Tagged: #i love them all :) #there are some characters where i'm tempted to lalala at some aspect of canon and imagine that way (moiraine! aredhel!) #but these are the ones where i genuinely read them that way #(don't @ me about expanded universes)
anghraine: text: i've had it with these motherfucking sith (samuel l. windu)
An anon asked:

rey for the character meme?

I replied:

Another old one, but anyway:

1. Sexuality Headcanon: these days, ace!

2. OTP: It used to be Finn/Rey, but canon ended up giving me more of a platonic vibe, I warmed up to Finn/Poe, and the Finn/Rey fandom soured me, so … nothing, really. I could go for Rey/Finn/Poe, but it’s hardly a OT3.

3. BROTP: Finn and Rey! They’re adorable together.

4. NOTP: weirdly, none come to mind? I ultimately find Reylo pretty boring, but I don’t mind it, so I wouldn’t call it a NOTP. Uh, what else … oh wait, I’ve seen Rey/Luke and Rey/Leia, and I’m a strong nooooope about those.

5. First headcanon that pops into my head: nothing really does tbh.

6. Favorite line from this character: idk, I’d have to rewatch the ST. A lot of what I like from her is pretty nonverbal.

7. One way in which I relate to this character: it’s early!Rey, but I tend to wait for my family and friends to act.

8. Thing that gives me second-hand embarrassment about this character: “Rey Skywalker.” She has ties to some of the Skywalkers (understood broadly), but I don’t think she’s anything like a family member, so it’s just kind of cringe for me.

9. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave?: She verges on cinnamon roll at times, but not at all times, so … neither.

anghraine: luke skywalker staring at his cybernetic hand; text: the monster within (luke [monster within])
For the character meme, grumpyfaceurn asked:

Did you get Luke yet for the character meme? If yes, Rey, please.

I don’t remember which meme this was for, but let’s go with Luke for the current one!

1. Sexuality Headcanon: asexual!

2. OTP: Luke/Han/Leia when I ship him at all.

3. BROTP: Luke and Leia or (in a different way) Luke and Anakin. SKYWALKERS <3

4. NOTP: literally anything apart from #2.

5. First headcanon that pops into my head: Luke learned Shmi’s native language from Beru as a child and is fluent in it (if with Beru’s accent), but after Owen and Beru died, he thought (wrongly) that he’d never talk to anyone else in it again.

6. Favorite line from this character: probably “Father, I won’t leave you!” T_T

7. One way in which I relate to this character: Not a lot, honestly? I love him, but we’re quite different. Hah, I guess we both have demeanors that read as Soft™ irl but … we aren’t, really. 

8. Thing that gives me second-hand embarrassment about this character: Also not a lot. His imperfections are part of why I like him so much! I guess the NOOooooOOO in ESB, though it’s understandable.

9. Cinnamon roll or problematic fave?: Not quite a problematic fave, but definitely not a cinnamon roll, fandom takes notwithstanding.



anghraine: luke fighting offscreen vader; text: destiny (luke [destiny])
Anyway, shout-out to the people responding to my old ace!Luke post. It’s now replaced some deeply irritating stuff on my activity bar, so I see the responses and appreciate them! :)
anghraine: kuvira from legend of korra (kuvira (face))
I was going through some old posts, and I’m not sure anything represents my experience of LOK fandom wank better than this:



#adfkjasdkj;f #tragically i didn't run over the classism one but that's the other one that sticks out in my mind as concentrated lok fandom
anghraine: david rintoul as darcy in the 1980 p&p in a red coat (darcy (1980))
An anon said:

Hello! I just wanted to pop in and thank you, from the bottom of my heart. It's been about 2 years since I read your P&P fic "Anomaly" and I was rereading it recently. I cried the first time I read it, bc I was so surprised to read something that spoke so similarly to my own experiences w attraction, and you had tagged it as "demisxual" and it was such a cathartic moment to find a word for it for the first time. So. Thank you :) it's a story that remains really dear to my heart.

I replied:

Oh, thanks! “Anomaly” was definitely a labour of love on my part, so it’s very nice to hear in general, and also, that it was specifically helpful.

<3
anghraine: luke fighting offscreen vader; text: destiny (luke [destiny])
kissmeagainarthas responded to this post:

Aro-ace Luke headcanons! *fistbump*

I replied:

*fistbump*

Aro-ace Luke is my forever headcanon and nobody will take it from me.
anghraine: luke skywalker in black; text: bamf (luke [bamf])
I was looking for an old post and, Tumblr’s search function being what it is, instead found the old ace!Luke wank. It was just … lol, I don’t even know.

I mean, I stick by my headcanon, but also, ACE LUKE IS BAD FOR ACE PEOPLE may be the absolute stupidest take I’ve ever responded to.

(I probably shouldn't have bothered, but it kept showing up on my dash, so I was like ... yeah, fuck that. IIRC it's still the only thing I've ever gotten real hate over.)
anghraine: a picture of a black-haired, golden-eyed woman with a dagger in her hand and scar on her cheek [sebille from divinity: original sin ii] (sebille)
An anon on Tumblr asked:

this may be a super invasive ask but i'm having some ace issues of my own. feel free to ignore. as an ace lesbian, do you feel attracted to women you post a lot like holliday grainger? or do you just think she's aesthetically beautiful, like a mountain? is it somewhere in between?

I replied:

Oh, it’s okay.

I’d say somewhere in-between. It’s definitely distinct from what I feel about attractive men (which is very much of the mountain type). But it’s not quite the same as being attracted in real life, either—less visceral and more aesthetic, in most cases.

However, I’m grey-ace for one, so I do feel actual attraction once in a blue moon, and I’m autistic for another, so positioning myself wrt other people is difficult. My experience is probably different from what most ace lesbians feel—though I expect it’s always messy.

(Of course sexuality is complicated for everyone blahblahblah but for me, the ace/lesbian line is very fuzzy, since my preference for women colours pretty much everything.)
anghraine: vader's pyre; text: redemption (anakin [vader's pyre])
Things are going pretty well!

- I mentioned some trouble with my bff under f-lock, but he hasn't hinted at any issues, so that's good. 

- I also got sucked back into Game of Thrones this season—not in a fic/meta way, but in a reading lots of fic and reblogging things way

- Suppressing the urge to respond to every 'yeah pretty much except *quibble*' to a LOK post with NO YOU'RE WRONG THIS IS WHY. But I stand by my opinion that a) Korra was completely justified in her anger at Tonraq and Tenzin in S2, b) Korra was completely unjustified in her treatment of Mako at the same time, c) lighting unarmed people on fire is always morally dubious, d) LOK fandom was absurdly awful in their interpretations of S1-S2, and e) a lot of that came down to ill-advised pacing and structure in those seasons. WE WILL NEVER AGREE ABOUT THIS THERE IS NO POINT. 

- I followed a long-time supportive follower who turns out to be into a lot of the same things and also a SJ person taking on the extremes of SJ Tumblr. She reblogs and writes a lot of anti-gatekeeping, so I've ended up reading and appreciating those, but it also introduced me to the fuckery of 'SGA' rhetoric, which as an ace lesbian raised Mormon is ... not a trigger per se, but certainly viscerally repulsive. So I've ranted about that a bit. I'm honestly very, very relieved that everyone I know (and some I don't) have been supportive about it because THE FUCK???? (I'm also annoyed as a quietly androgynous person, but the Actual Conversion Therapy Term component kiiiinda overwhelms everything else.)

- Practicing my Spanish on Duolingo, this involves occasional screaming. LOOK LA AMO IS COMPLETELY LEGIT.

- istg I will finish the already-late chapter of my longfic (we get dark, only to shine, my Very Problematic and yet also very pretentious Borgias fic)
anghraine: brown-haired cartoon girl with a wide smile, large black eyes, a bloodstained shawl, a cup of tea, a sword, and a crown (me (as author!))
I ranted about Han's skeeviness in ESB for yesterday, so I'm doing the unpopular opinions today! Though probably not for every conceivable fandom.

UNPOPULAR OPINION FRIDAY SATURDAY

Read more... )

And [personal profile] tree just reminded me that I have been slacking on my mission to spread memes like a bacterial outbreak, so here are some proper ones.

Memes! )
anghraine: sherlock holmes [benedick cumberbatch]; text: i'm bored & your porn is boring (sherlock)
Maybe I should just have hatred empowers us as a tag.

It’s rather awkward when you run across conversations you’d really like to be involved in but … you aren’t, and even if it wouldn’t be inappropriate to butt in, it feels sort of pointless. So I’m just going to be passive-aggressive and declare this

UNPOPULAR OPINION FRIDAY

Read more... )
anghraine: sherlock holmes [benedick cumberbatch]; text: i'm bored & your porn is boring (sherlock)
Oh look, another acewank. Fail on both sides this time, hurrah, and the strangely inevitable discussions with non-asexuals taking it upon themselves to define asexuality for reals, and some aces rushing in to cry 'but we're not the bad ones!' while others try to take epic levels in douchebaggery, and something about how how non-asexual people are really just like demis. Apparently, non-asexual people customarily feel no sexual attraction whatsoever until they're well into a relationship. Uh, the more you know, I guess.

There's a cool-looking fic meme (that maybe two people will respond to, heh), but... I actually need to write, so I'm not going to do it yet. However, gdocs is down, so I'll do another with a clear conscience.

first time fanfic meme )

asexuality meme, 24 (tw for sexual assault) )

fanfic meme, 24 )

memes (22)

Aug. 24th, 2011 11:49 am
anghraine: vader extending his lightsaber; text: and now for the airing of grievances! (muse)
I'm way behind on my replies, but eh, whatever. At least I'm nearly done with 10, which has been a sloooow chapter. Though it sped up about the time that that Luke saved himself from the flesh-eating beetles. (It makes sense in context.)

(Maybe.)

So, a bunch of memes before I finish up 10 and head straight into 11, which I probably won't have cause to answer, but ... meh. (At the moment, that's rather my response to anything. *eyes posting date*)

Fanfic interview meme )
WIP meme )

Asexuality meme )

Fanfic meme )

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