Tumblr crosspost (14 January 2021)

[anghraine]

I have really complicated feelings about being autistic and bipolar, but my feelings are NOT complicated about anxiety. It’s awful and I hate it and would do a lot to make it go away but nothing works!! So I just live in dread of about ten million different things all the time.

Meanwhile, my psychiatrist is like “I’m concerned about you oversleeping” when literally everyone has thought it’s a sort of anxiety burnout that causes the oversleeping anyway, but she wants to run tests that I’ve already had many times before, and has apparently no interest in dealing with the anxiety and AGHHHHH

Tagged: #things i'm regularly anxious about: #checking my email. bugs getting on my skin. showers. car accidents. falling down stairs. choking on food. #starting things in general #eye contact #anger #also when i was like 'i think i'm having a hypomanic episode' she was sure i was just stressed #and oversleeping #a week later: all is futile and hopeless. why bother with anything. i'm profoundly mediocre and will never succeed at anything #now i've sort of evened out but i KNEW i was cycling and she wouldn't listen >:(